Words

20th Century Refugee

Strange Dress Parade

 

THE ARROW OF YEARS

SURELY THERE'S SOME MISTAKE

NO ONE SAID GO

YET WE'RE HERE AT THE END

TALKING OF THEN

AND BRIDGES WE NEVER MADE

REHEARSALS OF LIFE

IN THIS STRANGE DRESS PARADE

 

THE HORSES BLACK

MAJESTY IN THEIR EYES

CASTING NO SHADOWS

TOOK EVERYONE'S BREATH

THE CARRIAGE IS DONE

LEADING THE PAIN AWAY

THE REST LEFT TO WALK

IN THIS STRANGE DRESS PARADE

 

THE WORDS AND THE SONGS

POEMS OF LOST AND BRAVE

SCATTERED BEFORE US

LIKE TEARS TO OUR FEET

SHOULD WE EVEN DARE

TO LAUGH OR TO BE AFRAID

PRETEND IT'S NOT REAL

IN THIS STRANGE DRESS PARADE

 

WHAT NOW MY BROTHER

WHOSE ARE THE MEMORIES

SHOWING ME FACES

WITH EYES I CANT TOUCH

BUT I WILL NOT FORGET

THE REASONS FOR SHARING THIS

WARM COAT OF YOURS

IN THIS STRANGE DRESS PARADE

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2001

Dont Look Back

 

3 AM BARELY MOVES WITH INCIDENT

THOUGH THE NIGHT TIME NOT AFRAID TO LEAVE A MARK

FOR SOMETHING THAT I MIGHT HAVE FEARED

CAUGHT ME OUT ALONE AND IN THE DARK

SAID DON'T LOOK BACK

 

PHOTOGRAPHS THAT STARE AT ME I HEAR THEM LAUGH

ALTHOUGH I GUESS NOT DELIBERATELY UNKIND

IT'S JUST THAT I REMEMBER WHEN

YOU GAZED INTO THAT CAMERA LENS AND SMILED

THEY ALL COME BACK

 

LATE INTO THE NIGHT TIME

SILENCE AND ME

WE TALK ALONE

 

BUT THEN I HEAR A VOICE AND I CALL OUT YOUR NAME

I CALL OUT YOUR NAME YOU DONT LOOK BACK HERE

OR TRY EXPLAIN

WHY IT IS WE'LL NEVER MEET AGAIN

WHY MEMORIES JUST CAN'T IGNORE THE PAIN

AND DON'T LOOK BACK

 

DREAMS REMIND ME HOW THE FUTURE MIGHT HAVE BEEN

WHILE REALITY WELL IT HASN'T BEEN SO CRUEL

SEEMS THAT I'M GONNA BE OK

SEEMS THAT ANYONE CAN BE A FOOL

JUST DON'T LOOK BACK

 

LATE INTO THE NIGHT TIME

HEARTACHE AND ME

WE SHARE ALONE

 

BUT THEN I HEAR YOUR VOICE AND YOU CALL OUT YOUR NAME

YOU CALL OUT MY NAME BUT YOU DONT LOOK BACK HERE

OR TRY EXPLAIN

WHY IT IS WE'LL NEVER MEET AGAIN

WHY MEMORIES JUST CAN'T IGNORE THE PAIN

AND DON'T LOOK BACK

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2007

The Gallery

 

THE GALLERY WAS OPENED THEY WERE COMING THICK AND FAST

THE BEAUTIFUL AND THE UGLY FROM THE PRESENT AND THE PAST

SOME OF THEM ARRIVED ALONE OTHERS CAME IN PACKS

VINCENT LOOKIN SIDEWAYS

CHAMPAGNE BOTTLES CRACKED

AND THE SHOW WAS ON

 

FEET BY FOOT AND ELBOW THEY KEPT ON POURING IN

THE CAVITY WAS ENDLESS STRETCHIN EVERY SKIN

REPORTERS THEY APPLAUDED THEY WERE MIGHTILY ENTERTAINED

BY THE THUNDER AND THE LIGHTENING

THEY THOUGHT HAD BEEN ARRANGED

AND THE AIR WAS HOT

 

BOSCH CALLED FOR A PORTER SAID RE-ARRANGE THESE WALLS

THE CURRENCY HAS SHIFTED SEEMS GOYA TOOK THE CALL

NO-ONE KNOWS WHAT HAPPENED JUST A TOUCH UNLUCKY BREAK

FINDING FRANCIS OF ASSISI

CHOKIN ON A SNAKE

BUT NOBODY CRIED

 

IN RABID EXPECTATION THEY EAGERLY CONFESSED

ALL MANNER OF CONNECTION THEY PRACTISED TO EXCESS

A SHOW OF BACCHANALIA TO EVERYONES DELIGHT

SOME LIT UP A CANDLE

SOME COULDN'T TAKE THE LIGHT

BUT IT ALL BURNED ON

 

PANDEMONIUM ERUPTED THE BUTTON WAS DEPRESSED

THE PHOTOCELLS WERE POPPIN PILLS JOINED UP THE REST

A DOG PISSED ON PISSARO CONFUSION JUST GOT WORSE

THE CABARET EXPLODED

FROM A PRESIDENTIAL HEARSE

WITH SEATS FOR ALL

 

RASPUTIN LOOKED AT STALIN AND KNELT DOWN BY HIS FEET

WHO WAS BUSY SHARING AUTOGRAPHS WITH THE PEASANTS FROM THE STREETS

AND POPE PAUL THE SECOND ONLY ONCE WAS HE APPROACHED

BY A MINER FROM JERUSALEM

EAGER FOR HIS VOTE

AND A PROMISED LAND

 

THIRTY NIGHTS AND FORTY LIVES THE SHOW KEPT CRASHIN ON

SOME WERE BASHIN BIBLES OTHERS QUOTING GONGS

ALL THIS FOR A CHARITY TO RELIEVE SOMEBODYS ITCH

THE HOLE WAS GETTIN DEEPER

AND SLIDIN DOWN A DITCH

WITH NO WAY BACK

 

DEPRAVITY AND DIGNITY WERE RAPIDLY EXPOSED

TO THE JURY OF THE MARTYRS WHO FEARFULLY OPPOSED

COLLECTION OF THE ARMOURY FOUND BURIED IN THE NAVE

RELYING ON THE PRINTED WORD

SOMEBODY MIGHT BE SAVED

BUT THE PAGE WAS BLANK

 

THE AIR WAS GETTING THICKER THE CHIFFON WEARING THIN

TIL EVERYONE WAS NAKED AND POINTING AT HER AND HIM

BUT IN THE HALL OF MIRRORS WAS IT A CASE OF SUICIDE

OR A SIMPLE LACK OF HUMOUR

THAT TOOK THEM FOR THE RIDE

BUT THEY STILL GOT ON

 

THE HEAT WAS RISING NICELY A PLEASURE TO EMBRACE

THE CALIBRE OF THE OCCUPANTS AND THE PLASTIC ON THEIR FACE

GONNA CHANGE MY NAME TO JESUS SAID GOEBELS AS A JOKE

NO ONE CAUGHT HIS COMMENT

AS HE SLIPPED INTO THE SMOKE

OF LANGUAGE LOST

 

PAGANINI HAD AN IDEA HEY LETS AUCTION OFF THIS PLACE

BUT NO-ONE REALLY CARED AS IT CORRODED IN DISGRACE

THE APATHY WAS HUMMING OF A TURPENTINE SMELL

ONE SOLITARY BID

AND I'LL TAKE YOU LOT AS WELL

AND THEN HE GRINNED

 

WITH A SWEEPING BOW HE MURMURED I APPRECIATE YOUR CALL

I HOPE I HAVE PROVIDED SATISFACTION FOR YOU ALL

THEN THE GALLERY JUST VANISHED HE WAS LEFT ALONE AT LAST

I WONDER WHO THEY WERE HE SAID

THE WIND PICKED UP THE PAST

AND THE AIR WAS STILL

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2001

To a falling of snow

 

DO NOT THINK ABOUT US AS ABANDONED IN TIME

AND TRY NOT TO LINGER ON MY MOMENTS OF DYING

RIGHT NOW I CANT HELP YOU ITS A PART OF THE PAIN

PLEASE DON'T ASK ME WITH QUESTIONS THAT WE CANNOT EXPLAIN

 

DO NOT BE CONCERNED THAT I LIE HERE ALONE

AND DO NOT BE AFRAID OF THE WORDS ON THE STONE

NOW ALL THEY WILL TELL YOU IS THAT TIMES MOVING ON

BUT THEY CANNOT REVEAL OF WHERE TO OR HOW LONG

 

SO COVER ME GENTLY WITH A FALLING OF SNOW

I DO NOT SEEK TO REST WHERE THE CLEAR WATERS GO

NEITHER DO I FEAR I CANNOT TAKE YOU WITH ME

FOR WHEREVER I GO NOW IS WHERE WE SHOULD BE

 

MAYBE MANY A SAD MOMENT WILL BE LAID IN YOUR WAY

FROM MANY A GOODBYE WITH SO MUCH LEFT TO SAY

BUT NO WORDS KNOWN TO TELL YOU THAT TIME CANT UNDO

HOW THIS HEART NOW SO STILL KEEPS ON BEATING WITH YOU

 

SO COVER ME GENTLY WITH A FALLING OF SNOW

IT IS ONLY FOR THE WHILE THERE IS A NEED TO LET GO

AND AS DESTINY TELLS WE WILL MEET ONCE AGAIN

NOW JUST FOR THIS MOMENT WE CANNOT KNOW WHEN 

 

DO NOT STUMBLE FROM SORROW BUT PAUSE FOR A WHILE

AND YOU'LL FIND IN THERE SOMEWHERE THERE ARE REASONS TO SMILE

FROM A MOVEMENT IN THE AIR OR THE CATCHING OF AN EYE

OR IN A WORD SOFTLY SPOKEN ALL DEATH IS DEFIED

 

SO COVER ME GENTLY WITH A FALLING OF SNOW

NO FOOTPRINTS ARE NEEDED TO GUIDE WHERE WE GO

NOW TRUST ME TO FIND YOU THROUGH A CORNER OF THE SKIES

WAITING TO TAKE YOU FROM THESE FINAL GOODBYES

WAITING TO TAKE YOU FROM ANY MORE GOODBYES 

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

theres a river

 

I LOOKED INTO THE EYES OF SORROW

I LOOKED INTO A HEART OF FEARS

I LISTENED WHILE THE STORY OPENED UP INSIDE

I RECOGNISED THE FALLEN TEARS

 

THERE'S A RIVER FLOWING THROUGH ME

I NEVER HEARD TO PLACE ITS CALL

NO TURN OR CHASE THAT I COULD FOLLOW

NO OCEANS TIME TO RISE OR FALL

 

THERES A RIVER FLOWING THROUGH ME

BEARS NO REACH OF SAND OR STONE

TRIED AT TIMES REMIND THAT I SHOULD SEEK TO GROUND

NOT HARBOUR LOVERS LEFT ALONE

 

THERES A RIVER FLOWING THROUGH ME

CARRIED ICE TO HEAT AND AGE

LEAVING SPRINGTIME BY THE MEADOWS

WHILE AUTUMN SCATTERED DREAMS WITH RAGE

 

THERES A RIVER FLOWING THROUGH ME

AT ONE TIME TOOK ME TO YOUR SIDE

BUT WHEN I STOPPED AND HADES KISSED MY SWOLLEN MOUTH

NOT ONLY STOLEN WATERS DIED

 

THERES A RIVER FLOWING THROUGH ME

I FEEL IT SLOWLY DRAIN AWAY

DROWNING LOVERS WHERE THEY'RE SWIRLING

TURNING ALL SO NONE WILL STAY

 

THERE'S A RIVER RUNNING THROUGH ME

DRIED UPON SOME LONESOME BED

WASHED AWAY INSIDE A STORM THAT LOVE UNLEASHED

PAID THE FLOWING WATERS DEBT

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

dirty point of view

 

SO I CAME UP SKUNKING PHEROMONES WONDERING WHAT TO SAY

SHOULD I BE POLITE OR MORE UPFRONT

THOUGH SURVIVING INTRODUCTIONS WHERE WE PUT OUR GUNS AWAY

I STILL STRUGGLED FOR A RHYME THAT WEREN'T SO BLUNT

 

WHEN I LOOKED AT YOU YOU LOOKED AWAY LIKE THERE'S SOMETHING UPON MY HEAD

AND YET ALL THE WHILE WE WERE DRIBBLING ON THAT TUNE

COULD IT BE I WAS THINKING OF SUCKING TONGUES INSTEAD

AN EARLY NIGHT IN THE EARLY AFTERNOON

 

YEA ITS ALL SADLY OH SO TRUE

THE PAINTING UPON THE WALL HAS COME UNGLUED

AND IN THE DISTANCE I KNOW YOU CAN SEE IT TOO

YOU AND ME AND A DIRTY POINT OF VIEW

 

SO WE STRUGGLED ON THAT FLOOR LIKE A GUITAR WITH A THOUSAND STRINGS

RIPPING THROUGH THE SPLINTERS WITH OUR NAILS

HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT OF A SAXOPHONE YOU ASKED ME WITH A GRIN

THAT'S WHEN I FELT MY SOUL HAD BEEN IMPALED

 

SHOULD I NOT HAVE BEEN CONCERNED AT THIS MAYBE SLYLY CRACKED A SMILE

OR KID YOU I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND THE JOKE

OR THAT I COULD SEE IT COMING REGARDLESS OF THE MILES

FOR I WROTE IT DOWN BEFORE YOU EVEN SPOKE

 

YEA ITS ALL SADLY OH SO TRUE

THE PAINTING UPON THE WALL HAS COME UNGLUED

AND IN THE DISTANCE I KNOW YOU CAN SEE IT TOO

YOU AND ME AND A DIRTY POINT OF VIEW

 

NOW I WASN'T SURE QUITE WHO YOU WERE SO I TRIFLED THROUGH YOUR BOX

DESPERATE FOR A PASSPORT OR A SIGN

SO IMAGINE MY SURPRISE THEN WHEN I FOUND THE FUTURE LOCKED

AND HISTORY JUST ANOTHER NEUTERED CRIME

 

I DISCOVERED YOU IN MAGAZINE CALLED PLEASURES FROM THE ZOO

A BOUQUET OF YOUR GLOSSY CENTRE SPREAD

SO CAREFULLY I EASED YOU OUT WHERE THE STAPLES CUT IT THROUGH

KISSED YOU THERE BUT YOU WANTED PAIN INSTEAD

 

YEA ITS ALL SADLY OH SO TRUE

THE PAINTING UPON THE WALL HAS COME UNGLUED

AND IN THE DISTANCE I KNOW YOU CAN SEE IT TOO

YOU AND ME AND A DIRTY POINT OF VIEW

 

NOW WAS I JUST A MAGGOT ON A HOOK UPON A LINE

AND THE LINE THAT I GOT HOOKED UPON WAS YOURS

AN' SO MAYBE I FELT DIRTY WHEN YOU PUT YOURS NEXT TO MINE

AND EVEN MORE WHEN YOU SAID WELL ITS JUST BECAUSE

 

THE BARTER AND SEDUCTION YOU HAD SPENT UPON YOUR SKINS

HAD ME CRAWLING LIKE A PAUPER BY COMPARE

WE TALKED OF BROKEN HEARTED AND THATS WHY THE RUBBER STINGS

ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU QUESTIONED WHY I WAS THERE

 

YEA ITS ALL SADLY OH SO TRUE

THE PAINTING UPON THE WALL HAS COME UNGLUED

AND IN THE DISTANCE I KNOW YOU CAN SEE IT TOO

YOU AND ME AND A DIRTY POINT OF VIEW

 

NOW I REALLY FELT QUITE FOOLISH JUST STANDING IN MY SOCKS

A NAKED MAN FULLY CLOTHED AND BLIND

CONFUSED BY OPPORTUNITY UNAWARE THAT WHEN SHE KNOCKS

THE ONLY MUSIC HEARD WAS IN MY MIND

 

FOR YOU SPUN ME SO SUBLIMELY WHEN YOU STARTED TO UNLOAD

REMINDING ME NOW OF DYNAMITE IN MIME

AND SO I HUNG THEM ON MY WALL BOTH THE PRINCESS AND THE TOAD

SO'S TO PACIFY LOVE BITCHING THROUGH MY MIND 

 

YEA ITS ALL SADLY OH SO TRUE

THE PAINTING UPON THE WALL HAS COME UNGLUED

AND IN THE DISTANCE I KNOW YOU CAN SEE IT TOO

YOU AND ME AND A DIRTY POINT OF VIEW

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2007

the ladies lament

 

SHE SAID I DONT WANT SEX BUT I WANNA MAKE LOVE

AND WE CAN SHARE SOME EROTIC MOMENTS TOO

BUT WHEN I OPEN MY EYES I DON'T NEED A SURPRISE

ALL I WANNA SEE THERE IS YOU

 

SHE SAID DONT HOLD BACK ON THE THOUGHTS IN YOUR HEAD

COME AND SAY WHAT YOU'RE NEEDING TO SAY

I CAN HANDLE THE TRUTH NO MATTER WHAT I REPLY

JUST TRY TO MAKE IT LIKE ITS FUNNY AND IN PLAY 

 

NOW DON'T TREAT ME LIKE YOU NEVER SEEN A WOMAN BEFORE

AND DONT TREAT ME LIKE YOU SEEN THAT MANY TOO

TOUCH ME LIKE YOU’RE KNOWING ALL THE MOVES THAT I MAKE

BUT THEN BE SO SURPRISED WHEN I DO

 

I DON'T WANT YOU TO FUMBLE WITH MY HEART OR MY NAME

AND KEEP COOL COS YOU AINT UP FOR TRIAL

COME LOOK AT ME TELL ME DO YOU THINK THIS IS WRONG

AN IF ITS YES WELL YOUR SIMPLY IN DENIAL

 

SHE SAID I REALLY GOT SOMETHING THAT IM WANTING TO GIVE

BUT I'M NOT TRYING TO GIVE IT ALL AWAY

NO I AINT THAT PRECIOUS JUST A LITTLE ON EDGE

COS YOU'RE MAKING ME MOVE IN THAT WAY

 

SHE SAID I WANNA BE THERE WATCH YOU OPEN YOUR EYES

HEAR YOU SPEAKING MY NAME AND THEN SMILE

TO BE THERE AND TALK OR SAY NOTHING AT ALL

MAKE IT EASY TO LAY THERE FOR A WHILE

 

SHE SAID TOUCH ME SOFTLY LIKE I'M MADE OUT OF SKIN

KISS ME LIKE YOU WANT ME TO STAY

AND IF YOU'RE FEELING THE NEED TO MOVE A LITTLE BIT ROUGH

WELL DO IT IN A GENTLE KIND OF WAY

 

SHE SAID IT REALLY WON'T BE WHAT YOU THINK THAT YOU WANT

QUITE SOON YOU'LL FIND OUT WHAT YOU NEED

YOU'LL BE BEGGING FOR MORE IN FACT CRAWLING THE FOOR

TRYIN A FIGURE SHOULD YOU FOLLOW OR YOU LEAD

 

SEEMS I'M GETTING THIS MESSAGE THAT MAYBE YOU'RE SHY

OR THEN AGAIN THAT YOU'RE THINKIN THAT I'M RUDE

I'VE HEARD SEX IS A PROBLEM IF IT DON'T MAKE YOU LAUGH

AND LET'S FACE IT I'M A SCREAM IN THE NUDE

 

SO IF ANY OF THIS MEANS ANYTHING AT ALL

GO PUNCH ALL THEM BUTTONS ON YOUR PHONE

I WANNA SAY I LOVE YOU BUT WHO SHOULD I TELL

IF I'M SITTING HERE AND SITTIN ALL ALONE

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

to kill the tiger

 

WHEN THE WORLD YOU ONCE BELIEVED IN SAYS NOW HERE'S THE REAL ONE

WHEN YOUR EYES REMIND THEY HAVE NO WISH TO SEE ME

WHEN 3 AM IS NEVER QUITE THE RIGHT TIME

WHEN THE RAINBOWS IN THE WATERS CONFIRM ILLUSION

WHEN THE LOVE THAT LOVED ME NOW SAYS I'M SO SORRY

WHEN THE HEART IS JUST A RHYTHM MUSCLE RUNNING

YEA TIME FOR YOU AND I TO KILL THE TIGER

OH YEA

 

WHEN THE VOICES THAT YOU RECOGNISED ARE SILENT

WHEN YOUR FINGERS ALL BEEN CRUSHED FROM IDLE STRUMMING

WHEN THE VERY ACT OF LIFE HAS NO REHEARSAL

AND DEATH REMINDS YOU WHY YOU LACK DIRECTION

WHEN I PROMISED YOU I WOULD NEVER CRY LOVE

THE SAFETY NET I STRUNG WITHOUT THE WIRE

YEA TIME FOR YOU AND I TO KILL THE TIGER

HMM

 

WHEN THE WORDS FIND HOW THEY STRUGGLE FOR RECOGNITION

AN EMPTY PAGE DRAWS EVERY EXPLANATION

WHEN THE CHOICE YOU NEARLY MADE WAS NOT AN OPTION

WHEN ALL THAT I CAN OFFER IS YOUR FREEDOM

TO LOVE ANOTHER IN THE WAY YOU COULD NOT LOVE ME

SO IF I CAN BURY ALL YOUR GHOSTS BESIDE ME

THEN IT'S TIME FOR YOU AND I TO KILL THE TIGER

OH YEA

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 3rd JULY 2006

ranting on the pile

 

WHEN EVERY LAST VOTE COUNTS FAILURE TO SLIDE MOUNTS

YOUR PLATFORM IS GRUBBY YOUR HAND SEEN DRIPPIN WITH BLOOD

 

BLAME IT ON A SHARP SHARK CORRIDORS ARE SO DARK MAYBE

YOU’RE BLEEDING OR MAYBE YOU'RE CLAIMING ITS MUD

 

STRIPPING DOWN A BLOWN FACE FAFFING ROUND IN MY SPACE

EVENLY BITCHY A CHAV IS TRYING TO FORCE ME TO CARE

 

WHATEVER WAY IT SMELLS SHRINKS OR SWELLS TAKE IT ALL

AWAY BEFORE IT SHOWS NOBODY WANTS TO KNOW

 

SKINNY IN THE FAT CLUB SHINY ON A MATT RUB THE JOKER IN

PLACE SPITS ON A COIN AND THEN DEALS

 

COUGHING IN A HACKS THROAT SINGING FOR THE BLACKS

VOTE THE KIDS AND THE OLD ONES PROMISES THREATS AND APPEALS

 

SEEN STARING IN A BALD EYE WATCHING AS IT FLIES BY

WINKING HARD-WIRED INTO YOUR BRAIN

 

I DO NOT NEED TO JOIN STAND IN LINE WHISTLE FART SING OR

KISS YOUR ARSE YOU WERE NEVER MEANT TO LAST

 

AND ANYWAY WHAT DID YOU SAY WHEN THEY ASKED YOU WHY

YOU TURNED AWAY WITH NOTHING TO CONFIRM OR DARE DENY

 

WITH SOLO AND A RAG BAG FEATURED IN A SHAG MAG. COMIN'

TO TELL YER SOMEBODY RATTED OFFERED YOUR NAME

 

SEEN MARCHING WITH THE PEACE BAND PISSING WITH THE

OTHER HAND CORRECTIVE SELECTION PILLORIED PUSSIED AND FRAMED

 

BUT AH WHAT THE HELL WHO'S RINGING THIS BELL YOU

BROUGHT ALL THE VILLAINS GOOSE STEPPING BACK INTO FLAMES

 

INTO THESE BONY WORDS BODIES BREAK PYRITES SEALED IN PLASTIC BAGS YOUR FAME

BUT YOU'LL NEVER KNOW OUR NAMES

 

AND SO IT SEEMS THERE ARE NO WORDS OF COMFORT FROM OUR DREAMS

TRUTH DENIED FADING IN OUR SLEEP AND IN YOUR SCHEMES

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

william and sophia

 

I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I'S EXPECTING MAYBE NOTHING MORE THAN HOPE

TRADING LOVES DELUSION FOR A FINGER TWISTED GROPE

DESPERATE FOR A THOUGHT THAT I DID NOT YET POSSESS

HOPING MAYBE STRANGLED BY HER SCARLET MOUTH CARESS

AND THEN SUDDENLY I COLLAPSED IN MY REFLECTION IN THE STAIN

IT'S MIDNIGHT AGAIN

 

 SAW HER WAITING ON THE CORNER EXPOSED BENEATH THE LIGHT

FLASHING RAYON PHEROMONES SUTURED BY THE NIGHT

SIFTING THROUGH A CAR CRASH PEDDLE 40 DOLLAR BILLS

INDULGING RUPTURED PROMISES LONELY DARK CAN CHILL

AND THERE WAS SOMETHING IN THE AIR AND IT WAS HEADED FOR MY SOUL

IT'S MIDNIGHT AGAIN

 

I STAGGERED DOWN THE HALLWAY PANIC FLAGGED IN EVERY STEP

DESPERATE FOR THE FREEDOM FROM THE CORNERS THAT I KEPT

FROM ALL THAT UGLY BRUISING STILL PULLING THROUGH THE WOUNDS

FROM ALL THE FLESHLESS LOVERS LOVE COLLUDED TO CONSUME

SO DETERMINED TO SURVIVE YET REPEAT IT ALL ONCE MORE

IT'S MIDNIGHT AGAIN

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2006

a journey of hearts

 

REPEATING TIME WHERE THE ECHOES CHASE

A KNOWING CALL FROM A STRANGERS FACE

REMINDING ME WHY MEMORIES COMPLAIN

 

FOR I RECOGNISED WHERE LOVE'S PERVERSE

IN GHOSTLY PHOTOGRAPHS REVERSED

SEEING THOSE BETRAYAL STUNG WITH PAIN

 

I SEE THEM IN THE FEAR THAT TIME MIGHT WASTE

I SEE THEM IN THE CROSSROADS ON YOUR FACE

 

AND THOUGH SISTERS LOVERS GATHER NAMES

EVENTUALLY THEY'RE ALL THE SAME

LOVERS WITH NO REASONS NEED EXPLAIN

 

FOR LOVE DOES NOT REPLY TO CHOICE

SIMPLY WAITS TO HEAR THE VOICE

THE ONE SO OFTEN HEARD BEYOND THE PAIN

 

I'VE SEEN THEM IN THE TEARS THAT LOVE HAS TRACED

I'VE SEEN THEM IN THE CROSSROADS ON YOUR FACE

 

NOW YOU WALK ON WATERS BARELY DRIED

SUFFER STORMS INTO YOUR STRIDE

DROWNING FAR ABOVE THE OCEANS CALL

 

BUT NO MATTER WHAT MIGHT DRIVE YOU DOWN

YOU WILL NOT CRASH THROUGH STONY GROUND

SOMETIMES STUMBLE BUT KID YOU'LL NEVER FALL

 

I SEE YOUR STEPS THAT NO-ONE CAN REPLACE

I SEE THEM IN THE CROSSROADS ON YOUR FACE

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2006

the body temple athiest

 

I DIDN'T NEED TO EXPRESS

I WAS QUITE UNIMPRESSED

BY THE DAGGERS THAT YOU LEFT IN THE WALL

THOUGH I QUICKLY STEPPED ASIDE IN THAT FAST FADING LIGHT

WITH YOU HEAVING UP THE PAST AS THE PANIC SET FLIGHT

THROUGH THAT ROOM

 

AND ANYWAY YOU

WITH YOUR FINGERS IN THE GLUE

SAID I WAS TOO FAR DETACHED TO EVOLVE

WHEN I PUT OUT THE QUESTIONS THEY FLEW BACK WITH BLAME

WHEN I CALLED OUT FOR YOU YOU KEPT CHANGING YOUR NAME

WITH YOUR SHOES

 

IT WAS CARRIED IN THE AIR

BEATEN PASSION BORED AND SCARED

JUST WAITING FOR THE LACQUER TO DISSOLVE

AND REVOLVING WITH THE HEAT IN THAT ANTHRACITE NIGHT

COULD ONLY IMPLODE IN THE WORST OF THE LIGHT

YET TO COME

 

RAVISHED IN THE CELLAR WHERE THE SURROGATES FRIED

A THIEF STOLE MY BEGGAR AND YOUR MURDERER DIED

IN MY BED

 

SO VERY HARD TO BELIEVE

JUST A FEW STEPS AWAY

WE HAD WELDED TWO PIPES THROUGH THE POLE

FOUND CARRION REJECT ALL THE BONES WE EXPLORED

REPEATING THE HABIT HABITUALLY BORED

CALLED IT LOVE

 

BUT THERE WAS MUCH MORE TO COME

FROM THE HUM AND THE DRUM

WHEN THAT SKIRMISH ERUPTED IN FLAMES

VISIONARY PROJECTILES ALL BLACK EYED N BLURRED

I COULD'VE DUCKED DOWN BUT THAT SEEMED SO ABSURD

AND UNKIND

 

THOUGH I DID NOT EXPECT

TO SUFFER SUCH NEGLECT

IN A PORTRAIT OF OXIDISED OILS

YOU HUNG OUT MY QUARTERS AND A PICTURE ON THE WALL

DRESSED ME IN COTTON SHOULD I FAIL TO RECALL

WHERE I BLEED

 

HOW COME I NEVER NOTICED ALL THE JUDGES IN THE QUEUE

CONCEIVED AND DIRECTED ALL DRESSED UP LIKE YOU

SUCH YOUNG BOYS

 

DID YOU THINK I WOULD BEND

WHEN YOU RALLIED ONCE AGAIN

WITH ALL THE STAMINA YOU SAID YOU CONCEALED

THAT ELLIPTICAL RAZOR YOU COULD NOT RESIST

WHEN YOU BOASTED SO PROUD OF THE MONKEYS YOU KISSED

IN THE PARK

 

AN YOU EXPECTED ME TO CHEW

YOUR HERMAPHRODITE VIEW

BUT I COULDN'T GET MY TONGUE AROUND YOUR MOUTH

AND UNDER YOUR SKIN I COULD NOT REACH THE BRACE

THE THRILL AND THE FEAR THE VAMPIRICAL CHASE

THROUGH YOUR VEINS

 

I KEPT LISTENING TO YOUR

APOCALYPTICAL BORE

WITH YOUR TENTACLES CAUGHT UP WITH MINE

YOUR SAD SAVAGE APPETITE CLEARLY DEFINED

IN A FAST FEAR FUELLED FRENZY YOU RIFLED MY MIND

AND THEN SMILED

 

YOU TICKED ALL THE BOXES BUT THE PAPER BAG BURST

DROWNING IN SORROW DYING OF THIRST

IN YOUR TEARS

 

JUST A WAY DOWN THE RIVER I BEEN PADDLING LIKE A FOOL

THE VALLEY STILL ASLEEP THE EARLY MORNING SO CRUEL

AND SO DRY

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

yulia

 

MOSCOW SKYLINE BRINGS THESE

HEARTS TO TRIAL

SEPARATED BY OUR

CORRODED MILE

AND THE MOON

 

YOU BROUGHT THE GHOST THAT I LOVED

DRESSED IN WHITE

LAID HER DOWN TO HEAR MY

SORROW BREATHE

IN PRAYER

 

I FEEL NO PLEASURE WHERE THIS

COLD AIR STINGS

SADLY RECOGNISE YOUR

BREAKING STILL

LONELY HEART

 

I CANNOT WALK WITH MOMENTS

LONG BEEN GONE

CRUCIFIED BY REASON

RIGHT OR WRONG

WITHOUT YOU

 

SHOULD I PREPARE TO LEAVE YOU

DIE ONCE MORE

BUT IF I WAKE ALONE PLEASE

MAKE IT WHERE

YOU WILL WAIT

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2006

There's no going back anymore (cd1)

a knock at the door

 

CONGREGATING IN THE AIRWAYS WHERE HUMANITY EXHALED

DISINTEGRATING STATUES IN THE PRESENCE OF THE FAILED

WHILE WAITING IN THE WINGS WELL THE WIND WAS MORE DIRECT

IT'S NOT THAT YOU ARE WRONG YOU'RE QUITE SIMPLY NOT CORRECT

NOW YOU MUST LEAVE

 

SO WE PICKED UP ALL THE PIECES OF OUR IMAGINARY FRIENDS

WE TOOK THEM THROUGH THE GARDEN AND WE BURIED THEM AT THE END

A MAGNIFICENT PROCESSION LAID TO REST WITH ALL THEIR WORDS

EMBELLISHED ON THEIR HEADSTONE "IN PRACTICE LIFES ABSURD"

AND THEN THEY DIED

 

THERE WAS NOTHING TO BE GATHERED BY SWEEPING THROUGH THE LIARS

NO SALUTARY PROPHET PREPARED DEFINE DESIRES

N WITH A JERKY DECLARATION THE DEED WAS ALL BUT DONE

WE SAT THERE QUITE ASTONISHED WATCHING WATCHERS RUN

IN PLACE OF TIME

 

I HEARD IT WHINING THROUGH THOSE AIRWAYS

TAKE A CHOKING GRAB FOR MORE

FELT THE FINGERS EYES WERE CREEPING

I COULD SEE EVERYTHING CHANGE THEN

WHEN IT KNOCKED ON MY DOOR

 

SO THEY COLLECTED ACCUSATIONS PATRIOTIC AND PERVERSE

COLLIDING WITH AUTHORITY FOUND CROUCHING BY THE HEARSE

OF THE NAMELESS AND THE AGELESS WHO COULD NOT SHAKE THE MARK

CAUGHT WITHIN THE HEADLIGHTS DESPERATE FOR THE DARK

AND BLAZING FIRES

 

FROM THE ASHES IN THE THROAT HIS PHOENIX GASP EMERGED

DELIBERATING SMOKE THAT HE MODIFIED WITH WORDS

I HAVE NOT COME TO HARM YOU HE SAID BEFORE HE SMILED

PRAY NOW LET'S BE PATIENT APPEASE ME FOR A WHILE

BEFORE WE FREEZE 

 

BY THEN MANY MORE COLLUDED TO NEGOTIATE DISGUISE

WITH LIFE A BORED ILLUSION CONFRONTED BY SURPRISE

EASY THEN CORRUPTED AS THE CONVOY TRAVELLED ON

DIRECTED BY DELUSION CORRECTED BY THE LONG

HANG FROM WIRES

 

SO DETERMINED THEY COULD SILENCE

ANY DESPERATE TO WITHDRAW

UNCONCERNED NOW FOR THE VIOLENCE

BROUGHT HERE WITH YOUR STRANGERS

WHEN THEY KNOCKED ON MY DOOR

 

WITH AN APPALLING SENSE OF TIMING WE MET BY LUTHERS GRAVE

WHERE THEY CELEBRATED ANGER AND PARODIED THE SAVED

ARE WE REALLY BOUND TO HELL ONE HOODED MONK REMARKED

NAKED IN HIS MIND OVERCROWDED IN THE DARK

WHERE FINGERS FIRED 

 

SO WE FRACTURED ALL THE CIRCLES AND WE LAID THEM OUT IN LINE

KEPT EDGY BY HIS COMMENT EXPLORE THE BENEFITS OF DYING

AND COULD THESE BE COLLECTED IN THIS LIFETIME FOR THE NEXT

HE STOOD THERE QUITE BEWILDERED NAILED OUT TO EXPECT

HE WOULD EXPLODE

 

SOMEBODY ASKED THE QUESTION ABOUT THE TOWERS ON THE STREETS

WITH NOWHERE TO COLLAPSE IF THEY WERE SNAPPED INSIDE DEFEAT

SOME SUBTLE ELEVATION ALWAYS FAR FROM THEIR CONTROL

YOU CANNOT SMELL THE DUST AND PRETEND IT TASTES OF SOULS

THAT HAVE NO NAMES

 

WHO WILL QUESTION ALL THE ANSWERS

YET CONTINUE TO IGNORE

WHAT IT WAS THAT I DISCOVERED

AND WHY NOBODY COULD HEAR ME

WHEN I KNOCKED ON MY DOOR

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2003

the morning after the year before

 

I BEEN WATCHIN THESE ELEPHANTS

THE PINK ONES THE BLUE ONES AND THE RED

BEEN STUCK INSIDE OF THIS CIRCUS

BASHIN ITS DRUMS ON MY HEAD

BIN UP ALL NIGHT WITH MY HEAD DOWN THE PAN

I MADE EVERY PROMISE ON EARTH

BUT FOR JUST ONE MORE GLASS

I'D SHOVE MY HEAD UP MY ARSE

GIVE YOU SOME KINDA IDEA OF WHAT I'M WORTH

WELL I MADE SOME MISTAKES

COME ON GIVE ME A BREAK

WILL MY EYES OPEN WIDE

WILL MY HAND STOP TO SHAKE

WILL I EVER GET MY FEET BACK TO THE FLOOR

WILL I EVER GET MY FEET BACK TO THE FLOOR

 

YOU ASKED ME IF I WANTED TEQUILA

I TOLD YOU I'D STAY WITH THE BEER

SOMEBODY TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED THEN

HOW COME I WOUND UP IN HERE

SEE THAT FELLER OVER THERE WITH THE STICKY UP HAIR

I'M SURE HE JUST THREW ME A PASS

WELL IT'S NOT THAT I'M SCARED

I'M JUST SO UNPREPARED

AND MY MAKE UPS IN ONE HELLUVA MESS

NOW I AINT GOT THE TIME

TO BE TAKIN A VOTE

IT SEEMS HE'S ANNOYED

HE'S GOT HIS HAND ROUND MY THROAT

AND WILL I EVER GET MY FEET BACK TO THE FLOOR

WILL I EVER GET MY FEET BACK TO THE FLOOR

 

YOU TELL ME THAT I SHOULD BE SORRY

I CANNOT THINK WHAT ON EARTH FOR

DID I RELIEVE MYSELF IN YOUR TRUMPET

DID I SHUT THE DOGS HEAD IN THE DOOR

EVERYTHING SEEMS CONFUSING TO ME

I JUST NEED TO GET MY HEAD CLEAR

AND I KNOW WHERE THAT'S FOUND

ORDER A ROUND

STICK MINE A DOUBLE IN THAT BEER

WELL I'M NOT REALLY SURE

I JUST MIGHT GO AWAY

A MONTH MAYBE MORE

YEAH THAT SHOULD SEE ME OK

AND WILL I EVER GET MY FEET BACK TO THE FLOOR

WILL I EVER GET MY FEET BACK TO THE FLOOR 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2001

 

paf

 

YOU ASKED ME IF MY NAME WAS GOD

I ANSWERED YES YOU DID NOT BLINK

SAID TAKE ME WHERE THE RIVERS FLOW

WITH BLOOD NO MAN SHOULD DRINK

 

I TOOK YOU OUT ONTO THE FIELDS

I SHOWED YOU WHERE YOUR LAMB WAS KILLED

THEN LEFT YOU BY THE RIVERS EDGE

DESERTED AND SO STILL

 

WAS THERE YOU SAW THE NAKED MAN

A RAG OF BLOOD WITHIN HIS HANDS

HE SAID I STOLE THE BLIND MANS SIGHT

FOR KNOWING MY FLESH WAS RED

 

HE WASHED IT IN THE WATERS FLOW

COULD SEE THE STAINS WOULD NOT LET GO

THEN HELD HIS BREATH TO CALL TO DEATH

SEND OUT YOUR FLIGHTLESS CROW

 

WAS THEN I KNEW SUCH INNOCENCE

CORRUPTED AND DISGRACED

TO RECOGNISE YOUR FATHER IN YOUR PLACE

THAT ONE WHO I ALLOWED DENY

KNOWLEDGE OF MY NAME

RETURNING NOW LOADED DOWN WITH BLAME

 

A STRANGER IN THE MARKET PLACE

LOOKING TO BARTER HIS LIFES DISGRACE

HIS BOOK LAID OPEN UPON HIS FACE

REFLECTING RED ON BRAILLE

 

HE LOOKED AT ME HIS HEART WAS CLOSED

AND CURSED ME WHERE MY SHADOWS ROSE

WAS THEN I KNEW THE TIME HAD COME

WHEN NO-ONE COULD ESCAPE

 

I WILL NOT TESTIFY YOUR FAITH

FOR ROADS THAT CANNOT TURN

ALONE YOU WATCH WHILE ALL YOUR CITIES BURN

FOR IN THESE TRIALS WHERE TIME IS LOST

DEATH HAS NO DEFEAT

THERE ARE NO ANSWERS HATE ALLOWS REPEAT

 

A SOLUTION WETHER THE FIRST OR LAST

WILL NOT DEFEND WHERE YOUR FOOTPRINTS CASTE

IN ONE SHORT SWELL THE STARS WILL TELL

THE SUN BETRAYS US ALL

 

YOU ASKED ME IF MY NAME WAS GOD

I ANSWERED NO YOU PUSHED ASIDE

THEN TURNING BACK YOU RAISED YOUR FIST

THE EMPTY SCABBARD SWAYED

 

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2003

brothers

 

I WAS CLIPPED IN THE SKIES WITH MY EGO BARE BLIND AVOIDING THOSE AWKWARD GOODBYES

WHEN I CAME ACROSS A SCRAWNY ARSED KID BANDAGES COVERED HIS EYES

I CHECKED HIM ALL OVER HE SEEMED BLACK AND WHITE AND QUITE DEAD

A MOMENT OF RAINBOWS CAREFULLY SPUN THROUGH HIS HEAD

 

 

WELL WE STOPPED FOR A WHILE CHEWED OUT THE HOUR WORMING OLD RHYTHMS AND RHYME

THATS WHEN I HEARD CRACK FROM THIS LONG HAULED OUT BELL WEREN'T YOU ONCE A BROTHER OF MINE

I LOOKED IN HIS FACE DEEP TO HIS EYES THEY WERE BLUE

BLACKMAILING BREATH, SIGNPOSTING DEAT, IT WAS TRUE

 

WELL WE STARED DOWN THE TRACK OF A BRICK BROKEN FACE BARBED WIRE CONCRETE AND RATS

WHERE SPITFIRES AT JUNE RODE OUT ON THE MOON THOUGH SOME OF THEM NEVER CAME BACK

FIRE ENGINED REDS SHONE GREENER THAN GRASS IN THE SUN

LATER HE WROTE ME TO EXPLAIN HOW THE ENDING BEGUN

 

SO WE TRIED BUT WE STUMBLED GIGGLED AND CRUMBLED UNABLE TO USE WORDS LIKE LOVE

LAUGHING AT STICKS IN THE CRUELTY OF TRICKS HOPING THAT THESE WERE ENOUGH

SO WHAT COULD I TELL YOU ABOUT WORDS NOT NEEDING BE SAID

WHAT COULD I TELL HIM THAT WASN'T ALREADY IN OUR HEADS

 

I TRIED TO EXPLAIN ABOUT THE COLD BARREN PAIN THE ONE I FOUND CHASING ON FIELDS

BUT THAT CLINICAL AIR HELD SOMETHING ELSE THERE, GOLD THAT NO POVERTY STEALS

BEFORE TURNING AWAY HE SUDDENLY TOOK HOLD OF MY HAND

SAID GO TO THE EDGE IT'S OK FOR YOU TO MAKE PLANS

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2006

somebody there

 

THE SUN COMPLAINING

FROM A CLEAR GLASS WALL

OF SHADOWS LOOMING THAT

NO ONE CALLED

NO EXPECTATION OF

A STORM WITHIN THE AIR

NO INDICATION OF

SOMEBODY THERE

 

FEAR AND SILENCE

TAKE TEARS ASIDE

TELL LOVE AND ANGER THERE'S NO

NO NEED TO HIDE

NO ANSWER SHARING THESE

HARD TIMES TO BEAR

NO EXPLANATIONS FOR

SOMEBODY THERE?

 

TIME AND MOMENTS

SO QUICKLY PASS

NO REFLECTION LEFT ON

THE BLACK DOWN GLASS

BUT TIME REMINDING WHY

SO MANY SHARE

THE MARK WITHIN THAT KEEPS

SOMEBODY THERE

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2001

GERONIMOS MARCHING BUGLE BAND

 

DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN WE LEANT AGAINST THAT WALL

SO AFRAID OF WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN SHOULD IT FALL

WELL HOW WERE WE TO KNOW HAD WE THE COURAGE TO LET IT GO

WE'D TURN AROUND AND THERE'D BE NOTHING THERE AT ALL

 

WE TOOK ANOTHER BREATH STUCK IT OUT AGAIN AND DUG INSIDE

REALLY ANXIOUS FOR A PLATFORM WE COULD RIDE

NOW WAS IT SOMETHING WE CONFESSED OR MAYBE JUST THE WAY WE DRESSED

THE REACTION WAS SO SLIPPERY AND SO SNIDE

 

WE TRIED CRACKING RIBS DOWN ALLEYS AND BUSTING TOMBS

BUT NEITHER CARED NOR COUNTED WE JUST CONSUMED

I FOUND IT VERY HARD TO TRACE ANOTHER LINE THERE UPON MY FACE

STRUGGLING FOR A THOUGHT THAT BEGGED FOR ROOM

 

WHEN WE STUMBLED ACROSS A CROWD WITH BLOOD TO SPILL

THEY WERE FLYING FLAGS AND FLAGSTONES CAST TO KILL

IT WEREN'T JUST SOMETHING IN THE AIR MAN YOU COULD SMELL THEY WERE REALLY SCARED

SO WHEN I ASKED WHO'S KILLING GOD THEY SAID WELL WE WILL

 

AND WHEN I EMPTIED OUT MY POCKET TO EXCHANGE

A TOKEN OF THE PAST THAT MIGHT EXPLAIN

WHY MY SUIT WAS CUT TO SHAPE AND I WAS EAGER TO ESCAPE

A SIMPLE POINT THAT'S ALL WELL THEY JUST COMPLAINED

 

FROM A QUEUE OF VEHICLES ROLLIN ONTO THE TOWN

SO SILENTLY THEY STARED NOT LOOKING AROUND

WELL THEY FIGURED GOD DON'T CARE SO THEY ABANDONED ALL THEIR PRAYERS

N GO JABBING AT THE SKY MAN YOU COMIN DOWN

 

I HEARD THE MILITARY MAN COUGH AS HE ENTHUSED

KEEP THE POPULATION FULLY OCCUPIED AND, AMUSED

WE REALLY CANT AFFORD THE STINK IF THEY SHOULD RECOGNISE THAT PINK

IS NEITHER BLACK NOR WHITE THAT THEY BEEN USED

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

times like these

 

NOW THERE'S SOMETHING GOING AROUND WITH THE PAIN IN MY HEAD

PULLING WHISTLE STOP TOURS THROUGH A STRING OF THE DEAD

I SAW THE FACES OF MY FRIENDS ALL PUT OUT OF SHAPE

AND A POSSE OF LEGS CHECKING OUT FOR THE BREAK

 

FROM A DUSTBOWL THAT HEAVED FROM THE TURN OF THE TIDES

CALCULATING SALVATION TO PROFIT FROM THE RIDES

ON THE BACKS OF THE CAMELS NOW THEY'RE FRESH OUT OF EYES

PRETENDING DECEPTION MASQUERADES IN DISGUISE

 

QUITE CLEARLY BEWILDERED THEY'VE COME BACK AGAIN

SEEN STANDING ON THE CORNERS THEY ARE COUNTING THE RAIN

WITH EACH DROP A BREATH ONCE ESCAPING HAS DRIED

AND THEN GASPING OUT LOUD AS HUMANITY CRIED

 

TAKE ME HOME NOW LORD TAKE ME TONIGHT

PLEASE COVER MY EYES AND MY EARS AND MAKE IT ALRIGHT

 

LIKE A NERVOUS DETECTION FELT SCANNING THE BRAIN

HE SUDDENLY STEPPED OUT I GOT CAUGHT OUT AGAIN

AND AS HE LOOKED IN MY DIRECTION WELL I COULD NOT TURN AWAY

AND WHEN PUSHED FOR A REASON I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY

 

SO THEN THE MAN IN THE PANAMA HAT TURNED 'N' PRAYED

SAID IT REALLY AINT PERSONAL MIGHT JUST LOOK THAT WAY

AND ANYWAY WHO GAVE YOU THAT CARD WITH MY NAME

YOU'RE JUST LOOKING FOR TROUBLE NEEDING SOMEONE TO BLAME

 

AND ARE YOU THINKING THERE'S A REASON THAT I OUGHT TO EXPLAIN

WHY THE RIDE IN THE DARK BROUGHT YOU BACK HERE AGAIN

NOW REALLY THERE'S SOMETHING YOU STILL NEED UNDERSTAND

IT WAS ALL DONE FOR YOU I AINT GOT NO DEMANDS

 

WHY DON'T YOU LIE CONVINCE ME IT WILL STILL BE ALRIGHT

SAY ITS OK I CAN CLOSE MY EYES HERE TONIGHT

 

AN UNFASHIONABLE CHURCH BELL DEAF TO THE CHIMES

TRIES TELLING TO HISTORY LIKE THESE ARE THE TIMES

DRIVEN WITH SILVER THROUGH THE ALTERS OF PASTE

ALTERNATIVE WATERS SWIMMING RIVERS OF WASTE

 

IN THE SECRET OF ALLEYS NOW THE TRIALS HAVE BEGUN

CAUGHT OUT IN THE DAYLIGHT ONCE EXPLODED AND SPUN

THE ARMOUR INFLATED ALL THE BRANCHES BEEN STRUNG

THE ROADWAYS BEEN ALL CLOSED THEY CAN'T ALLOW YOU TO RUN

 

AND WHILE HISTORY SWELLS WITH ITS LAYERS OF DEATH

AND WE CHOKE IN THE FUMES OF ANOTHER MANS BREATH

DECISIONS TO MAKE WELL THEY'D ALREADY BEEN MADE

WATCH HIS FLOWERS NOW WILT AT THE FOOT OF YOUR GRAVE

 

SHOULD I STILL BELIEVE I CAN TURN BACK THE YEARS

AND IF ITS STILL TRUE WHY DO I FEEL YOU'RE NO LONGER NEAR

 

IN TIMES LIKE THESE WILL I REALLY NEED KNOW

A DIRECTION THE RIVERS WILL FOLLOW OR FLOW

OR WILL I WAKE UP ONE MORNING FIND EVERYONES DROWNED

AND PRETEND IM SURPRISED SAY THERE WASN'T A SOUND<

 

OR HEAR THE SONGS OF THE PAINTER SO WAY OUTA TUNE

WHO STILL HASN'T WORKED OUT WHY THE CLOCK RHYMES WITH NOON

REALLY HASN'T GOT A CLUE WHY THE HAND OF THE JOKE

IN ALL OF THESE TIMES KEEPS REPEATING THE STROKE

 

IVE BEEN WALKING ALL NIGHT TO THE SOUND OF THE TIDES

WATCHING WHILE THE RIVERS TAKE IT ALL IN THEIR STRIDE

SO ARE YOU COMING HOME LATER GEORGE BAILEY TONIGHT

CAN I JUMP FROM YOUR BRIDGE NOW YOU’VE SEEN IT'S ALRIGHT

 

SHOULD I JUST CLOSE MY EYES AND SURRENDER MY FAITH

TRUST WHERE I LAND THAT I FIND I'M SOMEWHERE THAT'S SAFE

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

calling out

 

I WAS UP CLOSE WITH A STRANGER

CROWDED WHEN THE MOON WATCHED

I THOUGHT I COULD PLAY HER

CARELESSLY RUSHING MY LIPS DOWN HER LEG THERE

LAUGHING I BEGGED HER

STAY WITH ME HERE 'TIL ITS LIGHT

TURNING AWAY SHE SAID HERE'S WHERE IT ENDS

I NEED TO GO BACK CATCH MORE WITH MY FRIENDS

I WAS EASILY PERSUADED

SO READILY DEGRADED

BURIED OUT HERE IN THE NIGHT

CALLING OUT

 

I'S BEING RESCUED AT MIDNIGHT

IN A DOORWAY DOWN AN ALLEY

LISTENING TO THE DRUMMING

BETRAYED BY THE HUM OF A COLD HEARTED STRUMMING

CARELESSLY NUMBING FINGERS THAT STRAINED ON THE STEEL

REMINDING ME WHY TOMORROW WAS CURSED

PROMISING NOW IT COULD ONLY GET WORSE

AS I STUMBLED FOR YOUR SHADOW

CRUMBLING AS YOU STOOD THERE

LAYING ME LOW WITH YOUR STARE

CALLING OUT

 

NOW THE HOLE I'VE BEEN DIGGING

GETTING WIDER AND DEEPER

CARELESSLY DAMAGED

SWALLOWING ALL WHO DARED RAISE THE QUESTION

WHO'S NAME IS REMEMBERED

CHIPPED OUT AND SCULPTURED ON STONE

WHILE DOWN AT THE GATES

WHERE THE CAMERAS EXPLODE

LAUGHING AS YOU RAFFLE

A PHOTO OF MY SOUL

CONNECTIONS IMPLODING

FOOTSTEPS CORRODING

AND ME IN MY PARALYSED MOUTH

CALLING OUT

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2006

and you

 

AND YOU

WITH YOUR EYES A DEEPER SHADE OF CARMINE BLUE

YOU'VE BEEN KNEELING ON THE NAIL YOU SHOULD NOT HAVE SCREWED

WITH YOUR CONCRETE COVERED POODLE FAKING TOO

HE SAID WHEN BANNERS CHANGE

THE PAWNS'LL ARRANGE

TO COVER UP THEIR EYES

AND YOU

 

AND YOU

YOU THOUGHT OF ASKING DAMIEN HURST WHAT WOULD HE DO

IF HE FOUND HIS FORMALDEHYDE BEEN SWITCHED FOR GLUE

WOULD HE ELEVATE AN ALTERNATIVE POINT OF VIEW

OR PERHAPS ENROL

WHERE THE HEAD-LINES FOLD

TO MODIFY PINK PASTE

AND YOU

 

YOU DO NOT WALK AROUND WHERE THE CITY LIGHTS HAVE BLOWN

DEEP IN CONVERSATIONS WHERE THE SISTERS LOVE TO MOAN

THEY TALK OF CONSUMMATION BUT THEY WILL NEVER WAKE ALONE

WITH YOU

 

AND AGAIN

YOU'VE BEEN STUNG BETWEEN THE KNUCKLE AND THE PAIN

YOU TRIED TRADING UPON THE EDGE AND NOW YOU COMPLAIN

WHILE YOUR POODLE STRAINS HIS HARNESS FOR THE GAME

AND OLD SHADOWS PLEASE

THEIR MANIC SQUEEZE

DECLARING THEY'RE INSANE

AND YOU 

 

IN CLOSING DOWN FROM THE WILDERNESS THERE ARE PENALTIES TO PAY

NO ONE TO FAWN ATTENTION WITH INDIFFERENCE HERE TO SAY

YOU GO THRUST UPON THAT RUSTED NAIL A SOLUTION ON DISPLAY

AND YOU

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

all of the sad songs

 

HANGING IN THE AIR CONFRONTED LIKE A GHOST

MEMORY KNOCKS AT THE NIGHT

LATER TAKEN UNEASY FOUND NAKED IN THE DAY

SHADOWS SHIFTING THE LIGHTS

 

DELAYED BY A MOMENT COVERED BY A STAIN

BOTH CONFUSING IN TURN

THAT MAYBE YOU’VE A SCAR STILL NEEDING SOME PAIN

WATERS NEEDING TO BURN

 

THOUGH WITH NO WAY OF KNOWING IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN ME

SPLINTERED FRAGMENTS IN THE AIR

UNEASY REMINDERS LOOSE ON THE BONE

AND ME NOT SEEMING TO CARE

 

LOVERS LAYS TRAPS CARING NOT TO EXPLAIN

THE FAMILIAR SURVIVED IN DISGUISE

DEFENDING THAT I WHO WILL NOT LAY DOWN

HAS EVER KNOWN YOU TO CRY

 

NOW ALL OF THE SAD SONGS YOU KNOW THEM RIGHT AWAY

YOU HEARD THEM BEFORE THEY WERE SUNG

GATHERED IN THEIR WORDS SO MUCH YOU MIGHT SAY

YOU KNEW THEM BEFORE YOU WERE YOUNG

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

 

MUTILATED CARBON

 

 

AND THEY'LL SAY

YOUR EYES LET HIM DOWN

AS THEY GATHER AROUND

TO THAT HOLE IN THE GROUND

WHERE THERE'S NEVER A SOUND THAT YOU COULD EVER

RECOVER OR TRACE

WITH THAT BLOOD ON HIS FACE

FROM A MOMENTS DISGRACE

UNKIND OUT OF PLACE

 

YOU'LL REPLY

WELL I SAW HIM TODAY

AND HIS FACE WAS NOT GREY

AND NO LONGER AFRAID

WE HAD SO MUCH TO SAY THAT WE STAYED UP ALL NIGHT

AND IN THE MORNING WE PRAYED

FOR A MEMORY DELAYED

SAW THE FINAL DAWN FADE

THEN WE DRIFTED AWAY

 

AND I KNOW THERE'S NO REASON THAT WE'LL NEED TO FEAR

 

THAT IN HERE

THESE MYOPIC EXTREMES

TURN KALEIDOSCOPE SCHEMES

IN AUTOMATED MACHINES

THAT STRUGGLE WITH THE MEANS TO CONVINCE US

WE'RE PART OF JUST WHAT

SOME BODY WE'RE NOT

IN A PLACE WE FORGOT

TO SOMEWHERE IN THE DARK

WITH OUR HUMANOID MARK

 

IT'S THE PAIN

AS IT COMES BACK AGAIN

COLLIDING WITH BLAME

AND WILL NOT BE RESTRAINED

FROM THAT ENDLESS REFRAIN

THAT YOU STILL HEAR EXPLAIN WHY THE SILENCE OF YEARS GOES BY

WHERE WATERS STILL FLOW

ON A TAIL WIND THAT BLOWS

THROUGH THAT BLUE LINE OF SNOW

WHEREVER WE GO 

 

AND I KNOW THERE'S NO REASON THAT YOU NEED COMPLAIN

 

IT'S THE PAIN

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

a kiss for judas

 

I KNOW

YOU SAID

“ITS TIME” THE WHISPERS RED

AN THEY’D TAKEN ALL THE JEWS DOWN FROM THE POLES

 

AND SO HERE INSIDE

YOU TOOK IT OUT FOR A RIDE

SOMETHING I COULD NOT ESCAPE FROM OR HIDE

AND YET NOTHING OFFERED TO PACIFY MY SOUL

 

TELL ME WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO

TO LOOK INSIDE NOT BE LOOKING AT YOU

WHEN BETTER THAN ME YOU KNOW YOU STOLE MY VOICE

 

FOR YOU SET ME UP BEFORE IT ALL BEGAN

YOU GAVE MY NAME A CURSE FOR MAN

AND THEN LEAVING ME WITHOUT SILENCE AS A CHOICE

 

WHEN I DRESSED YOU UP FOR YOUR FINEST HOUR

THE FLESH DECAYED THE WINE WAS SOUR

TAKEN ASIDE PREPARING FOR DEFEAT

 

AND THEN LIKE A FOOL IN THAT DARKEST NIGHT

I ALLOWED YOU PULL THE ROPE SO TIGHT

YOU APPLAUDING THROUGH THE SPINE OF MY DECEIT

 

I SAW IN MY MIND

QUITE CLEARLY SIGNED

I COULD NOT LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND

ME GOING NOWHERE WITH NOWHERE ABOUT TO BEGIN

 

NOT A PRAYER WAS HEARD

NOR A TEAR DISTURBED

A KISS HAD TOLD MY FATE CONFIRMED

BORN WITH DEAD ON ARRIVAL ETCHED UPON MY SKIN

 

AN’ NOW WHEN YOU GATHER YOUR CROSS WITH WORDS

AND THE PAIN OF MAN APPEARS ABSURD

WILL YOU EXPLAIN WHY I CHOKED WITHIN YOUR BREATH

 

AND WHILE THEY GROVEL DEFENDING YOURS

THESE CONGREGATIONS OF GLOVES AND CLAWS

CONSIDER ME ALONE I’VE HAD NO DEATH

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

sail away

 

I WAS WATCHING YOU MOVING LIKE LIQUID ON THOSE BLUNT BROKEN TILES

I WAS SWALLOWED LIKE THE LAST GLASS OF WINE IN YOUR DIE FOR ME SMILES

NOW DIVIDED WITH MOMENTS THAT SPLINTER LOVES LOVERS WITH PAIN

YOU'RE BACK HERE AGAIN

 

AND I LISTENED TO YOU HUMMING THROUGH THE CHOIR THAT SOAKED UP THAT ROOM

WITH YOU SINGING LIKE A CHILD WHO'D JUST CAPTURED PETER PAN AND THE MOON

WHILE THE NIGHTMARE WAS QUIET HOLDING ITS TIME FOR THE TEARS

FOR WHEN YOU COME BACK HERE

 

SAIL ON MY LOVE

THROUGH THOSE POWDER BLUE SKIES

SAIL ON MY LOVE

DONT LOOK BACK CRY HERE STOP

OR ASK YOURSELF WHY

WHEN IT'S CLEAR

SAIL AWAY

 

I'VE BEEN PLEADING WITH MY MIND TO RECOVER THE TASTE OF YOUR SKIN

TO FOLLOW THE BREATH THAT YOU CAUGHT WHEN YOU GUIDED ME IN

NEITHER ARE HERE TO RELEASE THE GHOST FROM THE PAIN

AND THEY'RE BACK HERE AGAIN

 

SAIL ON MY LOVE

THROUGH THOSE POWDER BLUE SKIES

SAIL ON MY LOVE

DONT LOOK BACK CRY HERE STOP

OR ASK YOURSELF WHY

NOW ITS CLEAR

YOU SAIL AWAY

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2007

telling tales of dreams

 

STOOD ON THE CORNERS

NONE OF THEM SMILED

PROMISES CROSSED WITH

TONGUES THAT HAD LIED

COULD HARDLY AVOID

THE NAILS IN THEIR EYES

TELLING TALES OF DREAMS

 

I DID NOT INTRUDE

WELL WHAT COULD I SAY

TURNING ASIDE AS

THEY ALL PASSED AWAY

BURIED ALONE BY

LOVERS AND SCHEMES

TELLING TALES OF DREAMS

 

AND THE BOYS IN THE BAND

THEY WILL TRY IT AGAIN

WITH LIFE BARELY SUNG AS A CARELESS REFRAIN

TO THOSE WITHOUT SCARS

LAYING DOWN TO COMPLAIN

TELLING TALES OF DREAMS

 

I LOOK THROUGH A WINDOW

IT'S BROKEN INSIDE

I SEE THERE IS NOTHING

TO LOSE OR TO HIDE

STRUNG WITHOUT WIRE

AND NOT KNOW WHAT IT MEANS

TELLING TALES OF DREAMS

 

WHO'S WANTING TO BE THEM

LINE UPON LINE

BEGGING FORGIVENESS IN THAT MOMENT OF DYING

DESPERATE TO HEAR

IN THAT LONG HOLLOW SCREAM

TELLING TALES OF DREAMS 

 

A FRIGHTENED SURVIVOR

NEEDING TO BE STRONG

BEGGED NOW EXPLAIN WHY

IT ALL FEELS SO WRONG

HIS FINAL WORDS LORD

WITH MY BREATH YOU BLASPHEMED

TELLING TALES OF DREAMS

 

SO TELL IT WITH ANGER

SPIT OUT THE NAMES

SHATTER YOUR FINGERS

WHEN POINTING TO BLAME

BUT DONT BE CONCERNED

IF REALITY MEANS

TELLING TALES OF DREAMS 

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

the march

 

THE GATHER OF THE SOULS OF LEAD

THEY WILL NOT STOP TO BURY THE DEAD

THEY CHOOSE TO MARCH WITH YOU INSTEAD

FOREVER TO AN EDGE

 

YOU STORM THE DUST TO VEIL THE SUN

BUT WON'T ADMIT THE MARCH BEGUN

TO OVERTAKE THE LOADED GUN

HELD INSIDE YOUR MASTERS MOUTH

 

YOU ALWAYS SAID THEY SEEMED SO CLEAR

BROUGHT IN WITH FATE BEYOND ALL FEARS

THE WORDS THAT YOU WERE MEANT TO KNOW

AND HEAR

ONCE BURIED BY THE DEAD

NOW INSIDE YOUR HEAD

 

MILE ON MILE YOU PASS THE LINE

BARRIERS LOST NO MORE DEFINED

IF HOME IS JUST A STATE OF MIND

HERE MADNESS CALLS OUR NAMES

 

I SEE YOU FOUND WHO LOVE DEPRAVED

WITH DNA AND TIME DECAYED

WHILE NATURE TAKES YOUR HAND AND PRAYS

YOUR MEMORIES HAVE GONE

 

YOU STILL INSIST THE STREET REMAINS

THE FINAL PRIZE THE LAST DOMAIN

BENEATH THE COVERS ALONE THEY WAIT

TRADING PAIN

WAITING FOR YOUR CALL

AND THEN RISE AGAIN

 

YOU IDENTIFIED THE PARASITE

THAT SUCKED INTO THEIR FEEBLE LIGHT

AND IN THE DARKNESS YOU CAUGHT A SIGHT

OF RANSOMS PAID WITH TEARS

 

NOW ONE BY ONE TIL ALL BY ALL

THE STRONG WILL GRIP THEIR THROATS AND FALL

NO LONGER HAVE THE STRENGTH TO CRAWL

WILL ASK YOU WHERE YOU ARE

 

YOU WILL NOT HONOUR LIFE WITH PAIN

DEGRADED BY A NEED EXPLAIN

DECLARING HOW YOU STAND ALONE

AGAIN

NOT CARING WHO MIGHT STAY

OR JUST WALK AWAY

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

no echo

 

WENT DOWN TO THE HARBOUR

MY SHIPS HAD ALL SAILED

THE WATERS MUDDIED AND DRY

THE FACE IN THE CLOUDS

WHEN I BARE TURNED AWAY

REPLACED BY A DESERT OF SKY

NO LOVER LEFT WAVING GOODBYE 

 

FELT THE WIND CUT MY EYE

AS IT PUSHED ME ASIDE

THE WAVES COLLECTED THEIR VOICE

CAME BACK TO REMIND

HOW WE DRIFTED WITH TIME

MADE TO CHOOSE WHEN THERE WASN'T A CHOICE

SPEAK WHEN THERE WASN’T A VOICE

 

SO I TURNED FROM THE SEA

WHILE I TRIED TO EXPLAIN

THERE'S NOTHING THAT I COULD HAVE DONE

YOUR HYMN WAS ON FIRE

WHEN YOU STRADDLED THE CHOIR

BUT WE BOTH KNEW THE SILENCE WOULD COME

FOR A STARRY EYED LOVER PLUS ONE

 

I STOOD AND I WATCHED

WHILE THE SUN DISAPPEARED

THE MOON GIVING CHASE TO THE SNOW

THE TIDE HAD RETURNED

WITH THE SAILORS ALL BURNED

JUST LOOKING FOR SOMEWHERE TO GO

SOMEWHERE THEIR LEGS WOULD NOT SHOW

 

NOW MANY YEARS ON

THE SUN GLOWING COLD

THE AIR FLIES INSIDE WITH THE CHILL

OF A SEAGULLS LONE CRY

TELL ME NOW WHERE D'YOU HIDE

THE LOVER THAT YOU TOOK TO THE HILLS

CAN YOU SEE HER WAITING THERE STILL

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2001

There's no going back anymore (cd 2)

powder in the skies

 

I WILL CROWD YOUR SKYWAYS

THEN ABANDON YOU TO FLIGHT

CHOKE ASH ACROSS YOUR MIDDAY SUN

SET FLARES INTO YOUR NIGHT

LAY FIRES UPON YOUR WINTERS ICE

SNOW WHEN SUMMERS HIGH

SWIMMING IN A SEA OF GHOSTS BURIED IN THE WATERS WHEN I LIED

 

I'LL HARNESS YOU IN A FIELD OF SMOKE

UNRAVELLED IN THE FIRES

GRINDING UP YOUR BONES A PASTE

WHEN MY PAMPERED YOUTH EXPIRES

AND YOU'LL HEAR ME IN THOSE FARMS AT NIGHT

THE ONE RATTLING ALL THE CANS

BANGING OUT MY MERRY TUNES FOR THE PRIVILEGE AND DIGNITY OF MAN

 

I'LL HELP EXPLOIT WHAT YOU CANNOT

INTRODUCE YOU TO DESIRE

YOUR SKIN WILL DRESS HER NAKED BACK

MY COMPANIONS WILL ADMIRE

AND I'LL TEACH YOU HOW TO DANCE FOR ME

NEATH THE SWINGING OF MY CLUB

DON'T BE CONCERNED FOR I WILL STOP WHEN ONE OF US IS BORED OR HAD ENOUGH

 

I'LL HANG YOU FROM THIS PORTERS HOOK

DISPLAYED WITH CARELESS PRIDE

SCORN DERELICT FROM COMPLAINING TONGUES

WHO WILL VIEW ME AS DEFILED

THOUGH CRITICISED ACCUSED OF GREED

SUCH FOOLS DON'T UNDERSTAND

FOR WHY DO YOU EXIST AT ALL IF IT ISN'T FOR THE BENEFITS OF MAN

 

I'LL FOLLOW WHERE YOU FEAR TO TREAD

UNDERSTAND THERE'S NO RETURN

THAT THE FOREST THAT YOU LEFT BEHIND

CRACKED ON THE SAND AND BURNED

AND THE DESERT THERE THAT'S FACING YOU

HAS FUSED AS MOLTEN GLASS

MAYBE YOU WEREN'T LISTENING BUT EVERYTHING TO HEAR WAS IN THAT BLAST

 

YOU REALLY CAN'T EXPECT OF ME

A POSITION I WOULD TRADE

THAT YOU COULD WALK A WHILE WITH ME

OR EVEN WALK AWAY

BUT KNOW SURELY I WILL SAVE YOU

THOUGH IT MIGHT NOT BE TODAY

SO DO NOT GO THERE BLAMING ME IF WHEN I TURNED MY BACK YOU SLIPPED AWAY

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

waiting for morning

 

A STRANGER ON REFLECTION BRINGS A VICTIM WITH A SMILE

AND MY RESTLESS FEEBLE NAGGING FLESH GAGGING ON THE CHILD

SUCH SIMPLE FEAR AND REASONING HERE TO WILE AWAY THE NIGHT

STILL TERRIFIED AND MYSTIFIED BY THE URGENT SUCK OF LIGHT

THAT ALL MY EXPECTATIONS FROM THE MOMENT I WAS BORN

JUST TO LIVE THAT SINGLE MOMENT MORE TO KEEP MY BLOODLINE WARM

TONIGHT

 

CRUCIFIED OR SUICIDE IS THERE REALLY NEED TO CHOOSE

WILL ONE OF THESE PROTECT ME AND THE OTHER WATCH ME LOSE

FIRST YOU'RE JESUS THEN MOHAMMED WHO SHOULD I CALL OR BLAME

WHICH OF THESE TO RECOGNISE OR ARE THEY REALLY BOTH THE SAME

JUST LEANING ON MY SHADOW STRINGING LINES OF WORDS

WHILE SILENTLY THEIR LAUGHTER HAS ME FEELING SO DISTURBED

TONIGHT

 

YOU CAN HARDLY RECOGNISE MY FACE FROM SO BRIEF AND FLEETING GLANCE

GRABBING OUT IGNORE MY SOUL AND THEN LEAVE THE REST TO CHANCE

SWALLOWED BY THE FEAR OF NIGHT SO ABANDONED AND REMOTE

SOMETHING THAT I MEANT TO PLEAD STILL SLAPPING IN MY THROAT

AND THEN LIFE PRETENDS THAT NOTHING ENDS EVEN WHEN IT'S GONE

CONFUSED BY EQUAL QUANTITIES OF HIDDEN RIGHT AND WRONG

TONIGHT

 

DESPISED REVISED OR SANITIZED WHAT IS THERE LEFT TO CLAIM

FOR THE THIEF WHO STEALS MY NIGHTMARE NOW IS NOT MY THIEF OF PAIN

OR WILL I PUNCH INTO THE LIGHT SO COURAGEOUS IN DEFEAT

SO SATISFIED AND DIGNIFIED I SURRENDERED ON MY FEET

OR WILL I WAKE UP LAUGHING AND ATTEMPT IGNORE THE CHILL

THAT LATER STILL BEYOND THE DAWN THE DARK RETURNS AT WILL

TONIGHT

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

fading away

 

WINDOWS ARE BROKEN YET NO LIGHTS COMING ON THROUGH

AND STILL I DON'T HEAR A WORD OR SEE YOU

FOR A MILLION YEARS SINCE THAT SUMMER OF FOOLS

SHUTTERED IN DARKNESS INVADED BY THE FEAR

THAT ALL WE MIGHT REMEMBER COULD BE SELFISH AND CRUEL

YOU FADED SO FAST

 

YOU WERE WAITING WITH A DREAM AND I WAS WATCHING FOR YOU

BUT THEN I NEVER REALISED I JUST COULD NOT STEAL

PAST ILLUSION THE PAIN THE EGO AND THE GREED

TELLING MYSELF THERE WAS SOMEONE I NEEDED

AND YET I DIDN'T SEEM TO CARE JUST WHO THAT MIGHT BE

I SAW YOU SO LATE

 

FADING AWAY FROM THAT SOFT SUMMER SUN

SURROUNDED BY THIEVES COURTING CLAY

FADING AWAY WONDERING WHAT WE HAVE DONE

LOOKING FOR REASONS

LOOKING AWAY

 

SOMETIMES IT SEEMS I REMEMBER NOTHING AT ALL

EXCEPT FOR EVERY WORD HEALING OR CUTTING

THROUGH A HEART MADE OF NAKED UNBOUND BY BELIEF

SUPPORTED BY THE LIES DISCOVERING THEIR GRIEF

AND IN ALL OF THIS TIME LOVE'S A FOUR LETTER WORD

WITH NOTHING TO SAY

 

FADING AWAY FROM THOSE LONG TWISTED ARMS

UNABLE TO REACH OUT OR HOLD

FOR THAT SUMMER OF LOVE WAS NEVER HERE ON THE GROUND

ALONE IN THE DARK

FADING AWAY

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

africa

 

THEY TOOK OUT YOUR BROTHER

LEFT HIS SOUL UPON A NAIL

LAID A PATH OF BONES INTACT

FOR THOSE WHO BOUGHT THE TRAIL

RIPPED HIM OUT OF AFRICA WITH SINEW BROKE TO TRADE

DESERTED TO THE CATTLE AND THE SKELETONS PARADE

NO MOTHERS TEARS

 

THEY TOOK OUT YOUR SISTER

FORCED HER DOWN AND LEFT IMPALED

DRAGGED HER DEEP BENEATH THE SEA

PLUNDERED ON THE SAIL

DISPLAYED HER WHERE THE PRICE WAS PAID THE CONTRACT OF DISEASE

SOLD HER WHERE HER LEGS WERE TAKEN JUST BELOW HER KNEES

SO DOGS MIGHT RUN

 

IS IT NOW WITH SORROW THAT PORTRAYS YOUR FATHERS FACE

BETRAYED BY REVOLUTION FORGOTTEN AND DISGRACED

THERE ARE NO MONUMENTS FOR HIS LIBERTY

NONE EXIST TO CARE OR CARVE HIS NAME

 

THEY TOOK OUT YOUR BABIES

IN COSTUME STAINED OF SKIN

COLLECTED WHERE THE CAGES CAUGHT

SILVER PENNIES TO THE TIN

TO HEAR ALOUD BUT NOT REPEAT THAT EQUALITY IS OWNED

BY THOSE WHO DID NOT STUMBLE WHEN THE WINDS OF WHITE HAD BLOWN

WHERE WHITE WAS YOU

 

THEY TOOK OUT YOUR COUNTRY

ONCE BLED OF BLOOD AND STEEL

SOON REPLACED BY DESPERATION

WITH ONLY DIRT BENEATH THE HEEL

BOUGHT YOU WITH A TICKET THAT ALLOWED YOU TO RETURN

INTO THE EYES OF HOLLOWS WHO SEE IT NOW WITH NOTHING LEFT TO BURN

 

ARE THEY CALLING FROM THE WATERS FROM THOSE DUSTY HILLS IN VIEW

FLOWING INTO RIVERS ONCE FLOWING OUT OF YOU

WHERE FLESH HAS DRIED UPON FORGOTTEN PLAINS

GHOSTED IN THOSE NO MORE RAINS WITH YOU

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

flamenco in new york city

 

WHEN I STRIPPED ON A WIRE I CAUGHT THE NETTLE DESIRE IN YOUR EYES

I DIDN'T THINK OR EXPECT TO BE SUCKING UP A MUDDY SURPRISE

I SPUN THROUGH YOUR BODY 'TIL YOU DUMBED EVERY NERVE AND MY SKIN

WHEN I WOKE UP IN RUINS YOU SAID NOW'S WHEN THE FUN REALLY BEGINS

 

I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO PAN OR WHY YOU MADE ME DRESS IN YOUR CLOTHES

I REALLY DIDN'T CARE YOU KISSED ME SAID NOW ANYTHING WILL GO

YOU PLAYED YOUR GUITAR RIGHT CLOSE TO THE CLICK OF MY HEAL

I DRIPPED AS YOU TRIPPED WITH YOUR THIGHS BOUND IN FISHNET AND STEEL

 

WE TOOK TO THE STREET WHERE I JUMPED THROUGH THE HOOP OF YOUR BONES

IN A COOL MASQUERADE I FELT LIKE BILLY THE BLADE SO BIG SO GROWN

MY HEAD HELD A RHYTHM LONG AFTER THE DRUMMER'D GONE HOME

HARLEQUIN PROFILED AND THERE WE CELEBRATED ALONE

 

IN THE SMOKE AND THE HEAT I CAUGHT A GLIMPSE OF MY SKIN NEATH YOUR NAIL

I DIDN'T EVEN CARE MY COMPLEXION WAS RUSHING TO PALE

I JUST NODDED MY HEAD I WOULDN'T BANTER WITH THE JUDGE OR THE MULES

SEPARATION ASIDE WE WERE CLOSER THAN THE LOVERS OR THE FOOLS

SEPARATION ASIDE WE WERE CLOSER THAN THE LOVERS OR THE FOOLS

 

FROM THE ALLEYS AND ECHOES YOUR NAME CALLED FAMILIAR REPEAT

AND I WATCHED AS THEY CRAWLED ON THEIR KNEES TO KISS AT YOUR FEET

I REALLY HAD TO LAUGH WHEN THE COP THREW YOU DOWN ON HIS CLOAK

YOU LIFTED YOUR SKIRT AND HE WAS GUMMED IN THE BARBEQUED SMOKE

 

MY MOUTH KEPT ON DROOLIN WHEN YOU PLUCKED MARGARITAS FROM THE SKY

AND PUT SKIN ON THE EDGES AND SENT A LEAD BALLOON OUT TO FLY

I REALLY CANNOT EXPLAIN WHY I DIDN'T LICK THE HONEY FROM YOUR HAIR

AT MIDNIGHT WE HOWLED IN THE SKINNY DIPPIN MOON FOR A DARE

 

YOU SWORE THE PLASTIC ON 5TH BIN HUSTLIN TO THEIR PHEROMONE LAMPS

TIL THE BITCH OF THEIR BLOOD SEEN GIVING OUT IN MUSCULAR CRAMP

SO WE LAID AT THE MEADOWS YOU STRIPPED AWAY MY CODED EXCUSE

AN' HEARD THE MEMBERS APPLAUD AS THE AUDIENCE CUT IT UP QUITE LOOSE

 

MY MIND WAS PICKIN AT PIECES RISING ON THE FLICK OF YOUR FLAME

WHEN IT GOT ME OCCURRED YOU HADN'T EVEN ASKED ME MY NAME

YOU LEFT A KISS ON MY EYES AND SAID I'M ALL AND JUST THAT BIT MORE

THAT WAS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME ALTHOUGH I SLIPPED AS WE TRIPPED THROUGH YOUR DOOR

THAT WAS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME ALTHOUGH I SLIPPED AS WE TRIPPED THROUGH YOUR DOOR

 

YOU TOOK ME UPSTAIRS THE LOOK IN YOUR EYE SAID KEEP WIDE

THIS WEREN'T A TIME TO BE SCARED ABOUT THE DJINGOLES PARADING INSIDE

I REMEMBER YOU SAYIN TAKE CARE THIS COULD DAMAGE YOUR HEART

I NEVER REALISED YOU INTENDED TO TAKE ME APART

 

WHEN IT FELL TO THE FLOOR I JUST COULDN'T LET GO OF YOUR HAND

IN ALL OF MY DREAMS IN MY WISHES AND SCHEMES THIS WASN'T PLANNED

YOUR MANNER WAS BLUNT YET CUT LIKE A RAZOR ON HEAT

NOTHING PREPARED ME TO BE WALKING AWAY FROM MY FEET

NO NOTHING PREPARED ME TO BE WALKING AWAY FROM MY FEET

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2001

on my own

 

CAUGHT WITHIN THE UNDERGROWTH GODS N GRAVES HAVE BURNED

ON A RUMOUR BLINDED FUTURE THAT SOLD EVERY HOUR THEN TURNED

AND THE STAG AND RAINBOW ARMIES UNAWARE THEY LOST CONTROL

STANDING CONCRETE SENTRIES BY A LONG DESERTED HOLE

 

I FEEL MY LEGS ARE BREAKING DOWN THE WANDER OF MY FEET

NO MATTER WHO I ASK I HEAR THEM ALL REPEAT

WE’RE GOING HOME

ALONG THE PATH THAT I HAVE MADE

ON MY OWN

 

COLLECTING AT THE EDGE OF FIELDS THEY PAUSE TO GATHER BREATH

NOT CONCERNED WITH INSTITUTIONS THAT SLIDE ON LOVE AND DEATH

AND ALL THE LAID DOWN MARTYRS WHETHER ACCIDENT OR PLANNED

ARE LEFT THERE UNATTENDED TO LET NATURE STRETCH ITS HAND

 

FADING FROM HORIZONS THAT CANNOT REAPPEAR

WHILE DROWNING IN A NIGHTMARE STRIPPED BY LOVE AND FEAR

I’M NOT ALONE

SADNESS WALKS A WHILE WITH ME

ON MY OWN

 

I CANNOT FIND THE PLACE

WHERE THE LOVERS CHOOSE TO DIE

I HAVE NO ONE TO CATCH

FROM THESE GREY ABANDONED SKIES

I SEE THE LIGHT HAS GONE

WHO KNEW THE TIME WAS WRONG

THAT LOVE PAID WITH LIES

 

AS TALK RETURNS TO WHISPERING HUMILITY REMINDS

THAT MY SCREAM CONFIRMS POSSESSION OF ME N MY AND MINE

WHILE THE SULLEN WORDS OF SILENCE SWELLING IN MY THROAT

BOUND TO PANIC INDECISION FEAR TO STEAL MY HEART AND GLOAT

 

I HEAR IT ALL AROUND ME AS CRYING VOICES CHOKE

OF LOVE BETRAYED FOR NOTHING BATTERED WORN AND BROKE

I HAVE NO EARS

I CANNOT HEAR THE SONG WE SUNG

ON MY OWN

 

I JUST CANNOT REMEMBER WHAT I SHOULD FEAR THE MOST

ETERNITY, THE DARKNESS OR THE SHADOW IN MY GHOST

I HAVE NO TIME

TO TELL THE SUN THAT I’M ON FIRE

ON MY OWN

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2006

parallel dancing

 

WOULD YOU RECOGNISE THE TIGHTROPE

OR THE PLACE THAT I HAVE LANDED

WOULD YOU SEE ME AS A STRANGER

OUT OF TUNE AND MAYBE STRANDED

BUT WOULD YOU SIGNAL THERE WAS DANGER

WHEN A HEART INSIDE IS WOUNDED

WOULD YOU HELP RETRACE THE WONDER

OR TELL TIME DRIFT ON ALLOW THE MEMORIES FADE

FOR THEY WERE NEVER REALLY THERE WHEN LOVE WAS MADE

 

WOULD YOU UNDERSTAND THE FOOTSTEPS

SO DESPERATE IN YOUR SHADOWS

REPEATING WORDS AND PHRASES

OF A LANGUAGE TONGUES CORRUPTED

AND WOULD YOU TELL ME THAT THE MOMENTS

WERE NEVER REALLY WITH US

JUST A CAUGHT IMAGINATION

BETRAYED BY CHANCE AND THROWN ASIDE BY TIME

AND I NEVER KNEW A MOMENT SO UNKIND

 

THEN WOULD YOU TELL ME CRUELLY

THAT KINDNESS KNOWS NO ANSWERS

THAT CHARITY IS FOR BEGGARS

AND I HAVE NO CUP TO PLEAD WITH

AND THAT MAYBE WE ARE STEALING

FROM A HEART NOW DESPERATE BLAZING

TELLING FIRES THAT ARE BURNING

FEEL THE FROZEN WATERS LEAKING FROM MY VEINS

AND HEAR THIS HEART DECLARE THAT LOVE'S INSANE

 

WOULD YOU TELL ME THAT MY QUESTIONS

WERE BEATEN BY THE ANSWERS

LOST WORDS IN ISOLATION

THAT NO ONE WAS REPEATING

AND THAT LOVE WAS NOT AN OPTION

JUST AN OUT OF PLACE CONFUSION

SPEAKING FOR THE ABANDONED

WHO NEVER UNDERSTOOD WHERE ZERO ENDS

DID YOU EVER WISH THAT YOU DID NOT HAVE SUCH FRIENDS

 

DID I FIND YOU FOR A REASON

JUST TO PROVE I WAS NOT DYING

NAKED SCARED OR SKINLESS

WITH EVERY TRUTH CAUGHT RINGING OUT LIKE LIES

OR WAS I LOOKING FOR AN ANSWER

TO THE LOVE I HAD NOT QUESTIONED

THE ONE THAT I RELIED ON

THAT PROMISED ALL MY AGONIES EXPIRE

WHY DID MY HEART TURN OUT AS SUCH A LIAR

 

I WAS LOOKING AT THIS CHAOS

THAT NEITHER CARED TO MENTION

A LOVER IN SUSPENSION

STRAPPED INTO THIS NEED IGNORING BLAME

AND THERE MAY WELL HAVE BEEN AN ANSWER

IN THE LANGUAGE YOU WERE SIGNING

BUT AS I UNDERSTOOD IT

NEITHER ONE SET OUT TO FEEL ASHAMED

SO LOVE AND THIS INDIFFERENCE IS ALL REMAINS

 

I WAS TALKING WITH SOME SAILORS

STRANDED IN A COURTYARD

TALKING OF A LANDSLIDE WHERE

EVERYONE EXCEPT THE CAPTAIN DROWNED

THEY SAID DONT FORGET THE ROMANS

STILL BLEEDING NEATH THE ASHES

WAITING FOR ETERNITY

TO PROVE THAT TIME STOOD STILL WHERE LOVE EXISTS

FOR THAT'S WHERE I BURNED MY MOUTH UPON YOUR KISS

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

asleep in rusty waters

 

SOMEBODY TOLD ME

I DONT RECALL WHO

YOU NO LONGER LISTEN OUT FOR

THINGS THAT I DO

 

YOU SAID I BETRAYED YOU WITH SUCH

CASUAL NEGLECT

WHEN MY FRIEND WITH NIRVANA STOLE IT

ALL MY RESPECT

 

YOUR EYES CLOSED ANGRY WHEN YOU

LAST TURNED ASIDE

SAID IT EVEN MIGHT PLEASE YOU IF YOU

HEARD THAT I'D DIED

 

AND YOU REALLY WOULDN'T CARE IF I'S FOUND

FLAT IN THE DIRT

AS LONG AS I WAS SILENT AND THAT

NOTHING ELSE HURT

 

WELL THE GUTTER WEREN'T LONELY NOT WITH

SO MANY TO CALL

I COULD SEE FROM THE GROUNDSTROKE JUST HOW

HOW FAR I COULD FALL

 

I REMEMBER ONE NIGHT I WATCHED

A FOX IN THE RUN

I KNEW WHAT HE'S HEADED FOR I

I KNEW WHAT HE'D DONE

 

WHY DID I EXPECT YOU MIGHT HAVE

DROPPED ME A LINE

DON'T THAT STRIKE YOU AS FUNNY NOW WHEN

I'M NO LONGER DYING

 

SO LAY ME DOWN EASY WHERE YOUR

MEMORIES HOLD WARM

FOR THE TIME OF MY LEAVING NOW HAS

LONG NOW BEEN GONE

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2003

footsteps in the night

 

WHEN ELEVEN MAKESHIFT BUGLES BLARED THEY HELD ME DOWN FOR QUESTIONING

WITH SO MANY MORE CONFUSED BY BLACK ON WHITE

AND THEN SOMEONE SPOKE N SAID THIS AINT NO JOKE THERE'S SOMETHING THERE WHERE THE SHADOWS POKE

A WARNING WE MIGHT NOT SURVIVE THIS NIGHT

 

I FELT THEM THREAD WITHIN MY HEAD THOSE SPIKY EYES RIP THROUGH MY DREAMS

SCRAPING THROUGH MY SKINS MY GORE EXPOSED

THEY SHUT ME TIGHT INTO THE WALLS AFTER REFUSING ME ANY CHOICE OF STONE

CORNERED BY THE THOUGHT WHO ELSE MUST KNOW 

 

AND YET STILL I COULD NOT EXPLAIN

WHO I DEVOURED OR THE MANNER OF DISGUISE

I KNOW THEY'RE WATCHING WAITING HOPING TO IDENTIFY WHAT I CONCEALED

A DIRTY CORNER BURIED RIGHT BENEATH THEIR EYES

 

THEY GATHER STILL STANDING NAKED HOPING THAT THEIR FACE DONT SHOW

QUITE UNAWARE OF THE VICTIMS ON DISPLAY

TAKEN ASIDE THEY ALL COLLAPSED LUNGS OF LAUGHTER OUTA TUNE

WHISTLIN' WHILE THE SHADOWS HONED THEIR BLADES

 

I SAW NURSES DROWN IN A CONCRETE FLOOR THEY HAD ME TIED ONTO THE BED

PERSUADED TO UNMASK MY MOTHER SCREAMED

THAT YOU AINT MY SON, MY LITTLE BOY, YOU’RE JUST AN UGLY FOOT STOOD ON MY HEAD

TAKE IT FROM ME I AINT HERE TO SHARE YOUR DREAMS

 

AND YET STILL I COULD NOT ESCAPE

EVERY MUSCLE FROZEN THE PAST BROKE FREE

LIES DISPLAYED ON HOARDING BOARDS MATTER SLUNG THROUGH REVOLVING DOORS

THE UNBORN AND THE GHOST THEY'VE COME FOR ME

 

SHE SAID BLAMING ME FOR THE CONSEQUENCES CANT YOU SEE IT WAS ALL FOR FUN

ME AND THE FATHERS FIDDLING WITH YOUR FATE

THAT YOU'LL EXPRESS, DENY, CONFESS JUST ANYTHING TO HELP ESCAPE

BUT TAKE MY WORD YOU'VE LEFT IT ALL TOO LATE

 

THEN THE JURY OF ELEVEN RETURNED SAID WE’VE BEEN PAID TO EXECUTE

AND CONFESSION WELL WE'LL JUST TAKE IT THAT YOU LIED

SO YOU KEEP THE KEY WE'LL CHANGE THE LOCK A PRESENT WHEN THE GALLOWS DROP

JUST IN CASE YOU'VE A PLACE IN MIND TO HIDE

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

when we were young

 

I RETURN WHERE MY DREAMS EXPLORE YOUR FACE

COLD REALITY’S DISPLACED

UNAWARE THAT I HAVE LOST

CHANCE AND TIME

TO SPEAK OF LOVE DENYING

THAT NONE WILL DIE WITH MINE

 

I DIDN’T KNOW TO BE CHOOSING WRONG FROM RIGHT

WHEN I COULD SEE THE SUN AT NIGHT

NOR CARE JUST WHY HOPE

DREAMS GLOWS THEN FADES

SUCH CARELESS LOVES PARADES

I’VE STOOD WITHIN THEM ALL

 

OH WHAT HAVE WE DONE

WHEN WE WERE YOUNG

 

BROUGHT DOWN BY THE HEART ABOUT TO BREAK

IN THAT MOMENT WHEN I WAKE

RETURNING WITH

LOVE CAUGHT BY BREATH

FEARING MORE THAN DEATH

LOVERS LONG UNDONE

 

STILL TO FIND WHEN MY OPEN EYES REMIND

WHY THEY TELL THAT LOVE IS BLIND

BUT I HAVE NO ARMOUR

LEFT TO EXPLAIN

THE DAGGER TO THE PAIN

YET KNOW THEY’RE BOTH THE SAME

 

OH WHAT HAVE WE DONE

WHEN WE WERE YOUNG

 

SHOULD I CARE FOR THE COST OF ALL THESE YEARS

OF THE POINTLESS TASTE OF TEARS

BUT NOT WHY I CONFUSED

LOVE WITH FEAR

TO NEVER FEEL YOU NEAR

NOT SINCE WE WERE YOUNG

 

OH WHAT HAVE WE DONE

WHEN WE WERE YOUNG

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2003

no return

 

FEARFUL FOR THEIR LIVES THE REFUGEES ABANDONED HOME

FAR INTO THE WILDERNESS THEY FELT SO ALL ALONE

INTO THAT LONG AND DARKEST NIGHT WITH FOREVER STILL TO COME

WITH DANGER IN THE AIR THEY CLUNG TOGETHER SAFE AS ONE

 

DOWN UPON THEIR KNEES THEY LOOKED FAR INTO THE SKY AND CRIED

PLEASE DO NOT ABANDON US AND LEAVE ME HERE TO DIE

THOUGH SOMETHING IN THEIR WORDS IT WAS HEARD SO FAR AWAY

THEY HUNG UPON A BODY BROKEN AT THE BREAK OF DAY

 

AND THE ARROW IN THE SKY

NEVER LEFT THE BOW

AS THE ARMY OF THE LORD

NEVER CAME TO SHOW

SO THE FIRE AND THE FLAME

WAS CAST AGAINST THE COLD

AND THE YOUNG OF THE TRIBE

WERE NEVER TO GROW OLD

 

THE REBEL ARMY SAW THE REFUGEES UPON A HILL

THE CAPTAIN GAVE THE ORDER RUN THEM DOWN I WANT THEM KILLED

BUT ON THAT FATEFUL DAY THE REFUGEES WERE MORE THAN ONE

FOR THE DEVIL RAISED HIS SLEEPIN HEAD AS THE CAPTAIN RAISED HIS GUN

 

AND THE MAN ON THE HILL

NEVER SAW THE GUN

AND THE BULLET THAT WAS FIRED

NEVER HIT THE MARK

AND THE BODY THAT WAS BURIED

NEVER HAD A NAME

AND THE GRAVE THAT WAS LOST

WAS THERE FOR ALL TO SEE

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2001

and what for

 

HOWDYA TELL THE EAGLES WING

THE SKY CAN'T HOLD ITS FLIGHT

 

AND HOWDYA TELL THE MORNINGS WEIGHT

THE SUN CANT BREAK THE NIGHT

 

WHO NEEDS TO TELL THE WOODLAND WATCH

THE DESERT SUNK ALL THE RAIN

 

THEN WHO LEFT TO TELL THE BURNING SAND

THE CLOUD CAN'T SHOW AGAIN

 

WHO WILL YOU REMEMBER

THAT YOU DID NOT NEED BEFORE

WHO WILL YOU HOPE TO SURVIVE

AND WHAT FOR

 

IS IT TIME TO TELL THE OCEANS TIDES

THE WATERS HAVE ALL BUT DROWNED

 

THE ICE WILL KNOT WHERE SHADOWS FIND

NO LAND TO LAY THEM DOWN

 

NOW DARE YOU TELL THE NIGHTMARE NIGHT

YOU NEVER WERE ASLEEP

 

AS THE BLUNTED CRIES TOLL WITH GUILT

OF THE SILENCES YOU KEEP

 

WHO WILL DISTURB THE DARKNESS

WITH A MEMORY IGNORED

WHO WILL CALL YOUR NAME THIS NIGHT

AND WHAT FOR

 

SO MANY MORE SEEN SHUFFLING GREY

FROM STREETS LONG BROKEN DOWN

 

ALLOWING KIDS THE STRANGERS WORDS

TO REPEAT AND TURN THEM AROUND 

 

SO WHOS MOUTH RETURNS THE BROKEN HEART

AND WILL NOT SPEAK AGAIN

 

UNTIL SOMEONE TELLS THE FIST OF HATE

LOVE AINT HOLDING ALL THE PAIN

 

WHO DEMANDS YOU FOLLOW

DECLARING THERE IS MORE

WHO WILL TRADE THEIR YEARS OF YOUTH

AND WHAT FOR

 

WE STAND BESIDE THE ABANDONED LIGHT

SEE DAYBREAK STRUNG BY ROPE

 

AND IN BETWEEN THE WHISPER WHINES

IS LOVE NOW KNOWN AS HOPE

 

TO SEE HATRED SPILLED IN SACRIFICE

AND DRINK THE DEVILS RETURN

 

THEN BLAME HISTORY YOU BETRAYED THE PAST

NOW WATCH OUR FUTURES BURN

 

WHO WILL STAND BESIDE YOU

IS THERE SOMEONE BEHIND YOUR DOOR

WHO WILL HOLD YOUR HAND THIS NIGHT

AND WHAT FOR

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

down

 

EVERYDAY FEELS LIKE I'M TO BLAME

THAT ALL START AND END THE SAME

THAT I'LL BREAK INSIDE AGAIN

WITHOUT YOU

HERE

 

WHERE WINTER WILL HAVE NO NAME

THEN ALL SEASONS BRING THE SAME

NONE LEAVE AND TAKE THE PAIN

WITHIN ME

HERE

 

YOU

MY CHILD

MY LOVE

 

SOME STARE BENEATH THE RAIN

FACES AND EYES ARE STRAINED

AVOID WHEN I CALL YOUR NAME

WITHIN ME

HERE

 

OVER AND OVER I SEE

YOU AS YOU FALL

DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN

DOWN

 

TIME TELLS ME TIME LETS GO

TO ALL THAT WE'VE EVER KNOWN

BUT LOVE STAYS IN ME TO SHOW

FOREVER

HERE

 

OVER AND OVER I SEE

YOU AS YOU FALL

DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN

DOWN

 

YOU

MY CHILD

MY LOVE

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2007

across the great divide

 

TELL ME

YOU’ll NEED ME FOR A WHILE

NO PROMISE FOREVER

IT JUST AINT YOUR STYLE

 

HOLD ME

SOMEWHERE IN YOUR MIND

SOMEWHERE THAT'S SAFE

WHERE LOVE AINT UNKIND

 

IT’S SO EASY

YOU WON'T COME TO HARM

AND AFTER IT IS OVER THEN

YOUR LIFE WILL GO ON

 

NEED ME

WHILE THERE IS TIME

PRETEND THAT YOU LOVE ME

LET ME CALL YOU MINE

 

NOW SAVE ME

FROM THIS FOOL THAT I AM

TAKE ME WHERE I HAVE NO FEAR

AS ONLY YOU CAN

 

LOVE ME

THOUGH IT DOES NOT MAKE SENSE

HELP ME RECOVER

THE TIME IN BETWEEN

 

TAKE ME PLEASE

THERE’S A PLACE I NEED GO

LAY ME DOWN EASY THEN

HELP ME LET GO

 

 

© Gareth M Balch 2005

eighteen zero

 

I HEARD HIM SCREAM FROM THE TOP OF THE STAIRS

CAN SOMEBODY HEAR ME SOMEBODY SEE

I'M GONNA FALL

 

WITH A PHOTO OF LAUGHTER STAPLED OVER HIS FACE

TO COVER ILLUSION SMOTHER DISGRACE

HE THEN CALLED

 

IF I'M A NUMBER WHY DID ZERO TRACK ME DOWN

IF YOU'RE A PART OF THIS HOW COME YOU AINT AROUND

HOW COULD I PLAN WHAT I DIDN'T BEGIN

WITH BARELY A SCAR UPON MY SKIN

THAT AINT OLD

 

LATE IN THE NIGHT WHEN HIS FEET WERE IN FLAMES

HE KEPT LOOKING FOR ARMIES LOOKING FOR SOLDIERS

TO FIGHT

 

SO HE READ ALL THE SERMONS EXPOSING THE BRICKS

HUNG IN THE FUMES AN LATER DABBLED WITH TRICKS

SAID, "AH FUCK"

 

AND THE EXPLANATION WAS OR SO I HEARD

HIS MOUTH JUST KEPT UNWINDING WITHOUT WORDS

DENIED INSIDE BY ANY TOUCH OF PAIN

OR FROM THE RUBBER RUSH INSIDE HIS BRAIN

HE GOT NOW

 

THERE WAS SOMETHING AROUND I DIDNT CATCH IN HIS EYES

GRABBING THE BLADE REVEALING THE BONE

AND NOT CRY

 

AND THEN LATER I HEARD HE WASN'T SINGING TOO WELL

WARNING THE DEVIL MAN GET BACK INTO HELL

OR ELSE YOU'LL DIE

 

HIS MOTHER SOFTLY SPOKE THEN TURNED AWAY

YOU DONT LOOK TO ME FOR PRAYERS IT AINT MY WAY

SHE PAUSED A WHILE AND THEN SPOKE TO DEATH

SAID PAIN REQUIRES AT LEAST ONE BREATH

HE'S GOT NONE

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2005

last night in darfur

 

THERE WERE NO WINDOWS FOR MY SOUL

NO TOMORROWS LEFT TO HOLD

WHEN I FELT THE SUN GO COLD

ON DESERT SANDS

 

THERE WERE NO FLOWERS FOR MY HAIR

NONE TO GATHER THERE

NO LAUGHTER LOVE OR PRAYER

TO TAKE MY HAND

 

NOW I DON'T KNOW THE WAY

NO I DON'T KNOW THE WAY

TO GO HOME

GO HOME

 

I DID NOT KNOW MY SISTERS FATE

AND MY BROTHER STAYED TOO LATE

THEY BOTH SAID I SHOULD WAIT

BUT NOW THEY'RE GONE

 

THERE WERE NO FLOWERS FROM MY HAIR

NONE REMIND I'M THERE

NOW LAID BENEATH TO SHARE

THESE DESERT SANDS

ALONE

 

NOW I DON'T KNOW THE WAY

NO I DON'T KNOW THE WAY

TO GO HOME

GO HOME

 

 

© GARETH M BALCH 2006

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